Telemarketshit..

Prayers day, i'm sure it won't make a massive traffic jam today.. Cuz most of the working people take leave on friday what!

Again went in director's room, with 2 quotations on my hand for today's tasks. Explained what i did yesterday, bla bla bla.. White lies, won't work, my boss order Janice go to do outdoor tasks, asked me pass to her the 2 quotations, then he asked me do telemarketing, using newspaper's classified sections looked for clients. I stunned, and he started to make calls to a company from the classified, demo in front of me. My tolerance lost.. I hated telemarketing idea.. Why he made me do it? Fuck, fuck.. Fuck! I never liked that idea, i hated people calling me from hotels or credit cards centre, and i hated myself for doing it, previously, got scolded few times put me an urge of madness, "kill that fucker that fucked me!" well, by then i nodded, cleared my mind, settled down, cuz i'm leaving, fo' shizzle.. Few days do good, get paid, run for my life..

My girl called and asked for the ink catridges quotation. Again my admin delay my time until lunch. She's not helping me, kidding, only she's too busy on something. A delivery came and for the moment i was free, so i helped while waiting for the quotation. My boss's lecture sure delay an hour's gold, cuz after 10pm it'll be very busy for both of my company's admin. Fuck him though..

Went lunch with my relative.. My used to call family. My aunt was happy to see me, so did my other cousins. They can't recognised me, while i dressed formal. Hah, i guessed for all the years of grunge, this side of mine never previewed ever since. For the appearance like that, made my aunt more proud to have me a good godson in good looking way. I know, my aunt always like me to dress up nice and handsome, she doesn't want any people comment anything besides praising. She needs dignity, as a part of her effort taking of me all the years, for sure she's not like my dad. You'll get my idea. She wanted the best of me, sometime when she heard i'm struggling on something, she'll drop her tears for me, even my cousins also. I felt like crying also, cuz i've been a bad boy leaving them when i'm going to study standard six, followed my 4th sister there. A bad mistake i made and from the top of it, i became useless, filled with anger and hatred in me, without happiness. They're my happiness, blamed myself never thought deeply what they could really provide, love? Fairness? Or everyday's a happy day.. Wouldn't you want it? My aunt's a good cook, good mother. No matter how before anything becomes her, i've to give something she deserved. (shit, i cried.. My god, i loved them, why am i so stupid, because of that, i lost my uncle, who treated me like a king in the house, why? *tears dropping, for real*)

i told my cousin i've put a principle, i'll make sure myself i'll get something to prove that i've on the success progress. Now i got my ride, no matter how cheap it cost, is my ride. Even a Benz hit on me, he'll get my vulgar curses for hurting my very first car. Cy knew how i treated my ride, he got annoyed from me before. For the time being in my previous job, i had less time for my own, not to mention about visiting my relative. So i have time, pull full effort calling them and made plans for visiting this sunday, together with my girl. My father side's cousins came too, not for lunch, just dropped by and talked about their stuffs. I was out of the topic, was regarding their air hostess job.. They had planned for my new job, gave me their custom made resume and i filled up everything i could. My 4th cousin said they'll make a fake SPM cert and some other fake documents to support my fake resume. All fake, and a future fakey for a corporate company. I heard they planned to have me working in Ricoh, a copier machine company.. Everyone gets the idea what Ricoh is..

Then i left to OUG delivered the ink film to a company, then went to bank to check if i the cheque was cleared...

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None..

Bullshit, no money la like that. Petrol down, no dinner for the day. Then what? Go home la. Cancelled the basketball session, cancelled every appointment made for the day.

On my way home, i did passed through my previous company road.. Shit, i saw the truck was there and their in progress uploading the goods. I didn't take a good look who's there and what are they doing, i turned to other direction and fled, cuz seeing them that way really made me even more depressed and spoiled more for the day, i had it enough of it..

Do what? Play Xenogears, kill time till midnight then sleep, fucking day..

New Painter in the Making..

Thursday, everyone's looking forward to friday. On my way to work, met my girl, followed her to her workplace nearby had breakfast. Told her my cousin's plan on me. She was sympathy on my feelings. I know, what cy said was right, i lost my directions since i've been slacking for a month.

Again my boss hum at me. From Jesus to Buddha, he made it short. Why, he's great today, i got the mood then. Prepared the quotations for my cousin's company, she wanted to have to newspaper holder and the rack's prices. My admin was onto something dragged my time till lunch time, faxed and called to confirm, then my cousin reply she put on pending, the boss was out for some business.

I headed to cy's house, he's taking half day, his canvas reaching to his new room in Kenny's condo. Before that, we had lunch, told him about my cousin's new plan. He had no objections, encouraged me to try on, maybe i'll find better secure future for me. Then i followed him to his new place, the canvas were in different sizes, shown that cy's pretty ambitious at it. Saw the room was small. Oh, cy told me the room was bigger than mine current. Blasted, no more thinking of moving in Tmn Desa. Imagine you only put a mattress, you can't put wardrobe, or a table. Once you open the door, you could dive in your bed directly, no fuzz on walking, hah. Once the canvas were arranged inside the room, i asked cy. How the hell he's going to sleep? Where he should really rest in peace with all the materials and canvas crowded the room? He laughed, and i think it's not funny. He had plans for the whole month, get high with shits and get drunk to have his artist feels to do his paintings. Nah, just let him plan on those, just making sure he won't cracked his head on how to finish the paintings in a month. Picture attached, see how big the canvas were..










After things settled, we went to have drinks again. Chat, and talked about his plannings. I don't remember much of that cuz i've been skipping blogging for few days. Imagine i'm writing this on saturday.. Yeah, now's saturday, almost evening, after cleaned up my room, sent my laundry, this is what i'm doing, dude!

Again i went home, trying to save petrol, i'm totally flat, what to do? Hai.. Played Xenogears, till 11pm.

*snored* zzzz..

Sudden Proposal...

Traffic was ok, ran smooth..

Today another lunch with my 3rd cousin, seems important to her having lunch with me starting on, i hope it'll be good news from things will come.

Morning meeting, bla bla bla.. Ever since my boss held morning meetings everyday really kept the staffs in such long faces. I can tell it's not entertaining, what my boss really need was any problems they encountered. As far as i predict, my boss just like our parents, we all adults, here in the company, surely we'll know how to take care of ourselves. But more of the concerns really puking, the role was like parenting, except the fact that the words coming out from my boss was striking right to our heart, discouraged our righteous. He had the facts, only his attitude really annoying, i know, boss ma, come on, do we have to do these every morning? Do you think everyone deserves a peaceful mind first thing in the morning? Gosh..

As soon as he finished his lecture, we all lost our mood.. What else, can't really figure out how we could possibly achieve rm2k sales in 4 days time? We did had our demand on the sales target adjustments, if we do not accomplish, hell raised on tuesday evening.. The sales meeting.. Damn, 2 weeks i've been in the company, do i deserved to be flying now?

Lunch, with my cousin. She took a look at my letter of introduction. Seems my vocabulary screwed quite deep, but she promised she'll mend it and sent to my email, at least she could do. Appreciated, sis. Went to PJ somewhere.. (don't know la, PJ's quite a confusing state) A place we can have a peaceful environment, home cooking dishes, and kinda costly, again she paid for it..

Some trick questions she asked..

How much the company pays me:
-well, for fresh starters, there won't be enough for you to go clubbing weekly, once a month pain in the ass..

How's the work progress:
-pretty well.. (not really, due to my spits on top, you know exactly what i'm been through) learned some products and skills, technics on operating some machines..

Enough for covering my dues every month:
-i nodded and kept my head down, upset. Every month i always had the same pressures, i got savings, none of the savings will secure in my bank accounts, taken out to secure my ass..

What do you think of quitting this job and find a new job in a corporate company:
-woah, who doesn't want to work such places? I mean they pay well, EPF and SOCSO, 2 months bonus on year end, personal accident insurance (heard what she said), and annual leaves which make better approval percentage than small companies..

If you're interested, i can make arrangement for you, for the moment you got to stay on until your boss paid your salary then you can talk to him that you're joining another company:
-em, i've been telling everyone i'm selling office automation products, given all the name cards to the people i knew, promoted my company's existence at my office block, and now i'm thinking of changing job, new environment, new boss, new status, and new confidents.

Seriously with all the sudden of proposal, i can't put myself in a consideration, such short time to make decision like that, i never thought of going to be like this, all i wanted to have a salesman background with sales experiences, maybe took a year or two then i'll think of changing company and products selling. Seriously, my company doesn't provide any future planning, as i knew my assistant sales manager worked and a relative of my boss, stucked in same wages for few years of contributions. I heard he had been doing Multi-Level Marketing freelance job, less attention on his current job. I guess being someone's relative and working for them was a fucking pain in the ass, on top of that, after the boss married, the wife (Ms Chai, worked in Damansara, the one who 1st interviewed me before i joined this company) pressed on his financial purge on the staffs, increments and expenses, sort of like spending food on us, sponsor on things we need on work, etc.. For a year my senior worked, he didn't kept these low, even we're new, for his honestly, told everything he could just to make sure we're prepared for the upcoming disgrace, supposingly he shouldn't spit it out.

I agreed to my cousin sis, let her make arrangements, i'll put a tolerance on my boss for the meanwhile. Sent her back, then i headed home and sleep. Tough night i had last night, 1st is meeting, then jamming.. Oh, sleepy while driving..

Why Late? "I don't take excuses."

Woke up 7pm.

Argh.. Traffice jam.. So heavy, cars broke downs and some no fuel and parked at the centre of the road.. Shit.. Time passing by in pace, when i reached Jln 222, another jam, that was 9pm.. 2 hours of jam cost me no claims of my season parking fee, for a month! That's rm80 for christ's sake. This traffic had gone too far for me losing it..

Meeting was over, being called up to director's room. My boss gave me big screw back of my arse.. Ouch! I was thinking i'm starting to lose faith on sales, my boss gave Janice quotations and clients, i had none, insisted me find my own through my office's building.. "No chance!" (soundtrack of Mr McMahon) there's no difficulties of encountering the people at the block, only some no doorbells and it's rude to knock on glass door, don't you think? Some have signs of 'NO SALESPERSONS!', breaking down my tempo, after the screwed, no money, drank teh tarik for lunch.

Edmund called and asked my whereabouts. I'm at the cafeteria, trying to think of better approaching methods, rather than a piece of brochure tells a tale. I did the letter, looks nice but can't print out, network problem. Then tried saved the document and used Ms Liew's pc, can't online.. Such crap day i have. Any purpose to do so, dear God?

Today surely a boring day, i hope i could go back home early, take a good sleep till next morning, but there's a weekly meeting, yeah, tuesday's the suckiest day, had to stay late till 9pm, Sales Meeting, then training on products.

The difference between me, Edmund and Janice was Edmund had made much income and it's been a year, he managed to pay installations for 2 cars. Janice is a rich girl, yesterday when i fetched her at the car park, then i knew she's driving Perdana. Me? Penniless.. Like no other beggar on the streets, i'm sure they had more Ringgit than me, only had no place to stay. Not trying to say i'm pityful comparing with them, metaphor..

I forgetten to bring along my clothes for the jamming session tonight.. Oh yeah, no money, told cy, he said his bro would take care of it.

Tired, slept in the car until 4pm. So headache, after lunch time, did some door knocking, boring..

Again door knocking, few attemps were ok, only one big com, Naga DDB, dominated whole 7th floor, fucking big company. There's a few attemps i encountered said the HQ was at 7th floor, so the whole floor was not enough to fit the whole organisation. Rich.. The receptionist didn't allowed me coming in, i stood there giving much hand signals until she let me in, telling me no salespersons allowed. With some method, managed to get the contacts, and became settled down to know i'm not pushing my luck getting sales there.


Almost evening, had dinner with my collegues, then attended sales meeting. It's a boring routine, eventually i had a jamming session was set at the same day, so tuesday considered torturing day.. *yaiks!* Today's topic, about the sales (yeah yeah yeah, right) and the new model or Digital Video Recorder for the cctv, to tv model. So i roughly know how exactly using it, so it's like everyone impressed, come on, the buttons are user friendly, even my dad know how to use, just like astro's remote controller. Bah!

Went home, packed my portable vcd player for cy, asked me about it this afternoon, in return he would had to lend me his playstation. Reached his house 11pm.

His arm ck came back, brought instruments along, follow his friend's car to the jamming place. We met King, who's given us a chance to perform live at Bangsar's Mini Church, somehow we got supportive audiences, since they knew emo rock sort of music, thanks to damn dirty apes, mogwai worshipping.

Jammed for about 2hours, i think, paid the cost of an hour, rm25. 5 of us, including 2 ck's band members. If we're gona chip in, rm5 each.. Cheap ain't? The place was rented rm1k per month, renovation took place, cost rm40k.. The interior looks japs, peaceful and private, big space for the studio, carpeted floor, and some personal entertainment at the corner. King even do guitar lesson at day time while renting studio at night, from the earnings he could survive, but taking back the cost maybe hard.

We had drinks, talked about King's idea of getting own place for music purposes was awesome. Ck said he was expecting me, due to my previous job i'm like out of the touch, i guessed he's right, indirectly telling me i should coop up my talented skills, do more jamming and practising since this new job provides free time. Good.

After i reached home, plugged in playstation, tried the cheat, found Xenogears.. Wow, i've been in tense getting through the levels, now it's even convenient to play with cheats.. Damn, played until 4am, gotta sleep man, before i get late on the next day..

Door to Door. . Not?

Woke up 7pm.. Late already lor!!!

In a swift, all the necessary chores in the morning done, speeded to my office like crazy frog.. Brrrumm, beng, beng, brooom, broom.. Beeeee~ng.. Beeee~~ng! (my car's exhaust pipe 2 inches, so imagine the loudness..)

Had breakfast with my collegues, then went office 9pm sharp.. My boss coming in at noon, so i went out doing door to door sales, starting at D block the highest floor.. Shit, my phone can't call out, cut line already..

Everything seems smooth, the staff there really polite, let me in to promote my company's product, no objections from them.. Then an idea came up: if ever who maybe in charge on office equipments was not around, i should attached another piece of letter written company's profile and my introduction, plus the purpose, so the person gets the idea rather i come with only selling intention, despite knowing their existence and nature of the company.. Gotta try do something about it, maybe cy could help me that..

12 noon, received message from my 3rd cousin, Janice, who's working in PJ, meeting her at Coffee Bean in Section 8 having lunch together.. Why coffee bean? Got food meh?

She can't recognise me while i'm on working attire, she's impressed that i looked good that way.. I knew that all the while.. *blushed* no la, once in a while of being proud, understand a bit ok?She paid the food for me, knew i was broke and saving some cash for the petrol.. I never expected having lunch in such place, cuz i like budget food during weekdays. I told her my job, and the on going task i'm having today. She gave some tips on how to make the clients have confidence at me, somehow it all depend on me, gotta twist my mind thinking pranks and interest attractions. I told her my plan of giving another attachment on the brochue, and she seemed agreed, don't know la, cuz i think i'm creating such tactics may impressed the clients i'm approaching, it's important rather a brochue, the clients treated it like trash.I followed Janice back to her office at Jln 222, cuz i need her name card for the references, also i meeting her again for another lunch on wednesday, by that time i'm gonna be fetching her.
Then Edmund called, asked me if i'm joining him at Sunway Pyramid. So i went there and he tricked me there's a project proposal, wanted me to be there and learn something.. Fuck, i thought i could do more door to door, busted the mood, sat with him and Janice (this time was my real collegue, not my cousin sis). We had drinks at Starbucks and we sat there a long time, Edmund was telling stories again of our company's history, between boss and staffs. Quite long story, until i'm late for paying my phone bill..

Janice followed Edmund out, never know how exactly she managed to come out together with him.. So i sent her back to office to collect her car.. Hmm.. She's driving Perdana.. Doing sales? Wow..

Went home, tired. Watch Ong Bak again, no movie can watch. Been like hang around doing nothing, then my girl called. Talked about today's activities, about half an hour. Then i called cy see if i could use his resources.. He's sleeping though, missed the chance, should call him earlier. Now writing today's blog.. Yeah.. Ironed my clothes, watched tv shows, never do any comparisons, think tomorrow i'll do.. In the morning..

Fun later, Suffer Like Shit..

My cousin called.. *yawn* huh? It's already 8.30am.. Answered the call, said they were here already.. Soon they found me parking at the petrol station's exit, then my 4th cousin sis came n sit in my car.

Followed them along the way and reached within minutes, seems near. The sunlight was killing, stitching my eyes, not enough sleep..

Even worst, the smoke of the sticks flooded the air, tears coming out, luckily i was not wearing contact lenses.. Lotsa people preparing for the prayers, burning papers and praying. Then the 'Sifu' came out to start the prayers. All of us walked around the porch, about 7-8 rounds, can't remember.. My 1st cousin sis's children grown, i don't think they remember who i am, especially the elder one, who used to play with me since he was very little, almost my height now, time flies by, and i'm growing old.. My youngest cousin sis, Wendy, already 28th, she's gonna get married on Dec, so my cousins were discussing about it, wondered if i could fetch another cousin sis, Yvonne, who work same airline job with my youngest cousin sis. Confusing la telling all these cousins..

I'm 'god son of Guan Yin', me and Wendy were same, waiting for our queue to.. 'be god children to Guan Yin again'.. I hope this was not a laughing issue.. Hope those chinese understand what i'm trying to say, ok? The 'Sifu' guessed that i'm eating beef lately, supposed i was restricted eating beef, but i never bother, it's food.. Now had to stop eating beef.. Become pure chinese again..

Left earlier, heard my girl went prayers also and might be back at time i'm heading home. So i called her if she wanted to sleep at my house cuz i'm sleepy, maybe we could sleep together.
So i fetched her and she demanded for a hair cut, she got a lotsa split ends. We went Summit and she did her haircut, with bonding, cost her 2 hours and rm180.

It's about 3pm we went to my place, took bath and started sleeping..
Zzzzzzzz..

Woke up at 11pm.. Woah, so late already, sent her home, had a nice milo ice nearby her place, wrote blog (before this blog) and headed home. Ironed my clothes and slept at 1am.

Zzzzzzzzzzzz........

Work Shit, Fun Later..

Woke up early at 6.30am, started going out at 7am and reached office at 7.30am.. Early right?

I was writing my blog, waiting for the nasi lemak and passing time. Later on my collegues came and joined me, then we went in office before 9am. The other branch's staffs came over to joined us meeting, every saturday compulsory.. The topic of the day, any new suggestions and complaints to be made. So far the old staffs had some, for me it's still fine, nothing much to say. After the meeting, we're expecting suppliers to come over and have a training on their products, heard Felicia coming over.. Ooh, that sweet girl, she's matured looking, nice dark brown dyed hair, sweet smile and classy attires.. Oh man, i wondered if she's interested on tonight's party at Poppy.. Gotta find a way how to get close to her, got her name card with her chinese name written, of course the name was meant for a pretty girl like her, 'maktub'.. She gave a very nice explainations on the product and silling points, the very fortunate of me was sitting just right in front of her, yet the table was small, our eye contacts could create a massive disaster of thunderstorm, my heart pounded like a locomotive's engine, hard strokes, the voices of hers like damn sweet as angel, i bet she can really make my day if i happened to be in bad mood.. Nah, these expressions just said out loud, i don't meant to make you jealous, darling, i bet you'll have the same feel..

Before Felicia left, we were asked to the director's room and have another private meeting, Felicia came in and said goodbye, i said "see you again..", she replied "see you again too!" I hope she really meant it, i hope, gosh she's sweeping me off my from my feet.. Ah, then my boss asked us about our yesterday's tasks.. Janice already had advantages on quoting customers while i'm still slacking, so all the while i've been pressured, telling me things indirectly offending my resolutions.. One thing i dislike that he doesn't want us to make excuse on issues, no simplicity on our tasks, must have problems in order he can share with us the solutions, which means he's a troublemaker. I knew he's in tense of earning fast money, think about it, i had the same needs like him, paying dues and food expenses of the month, i did wanted to have sales, just that it's my fault, i don't have much confidence, because i'm lacked of knowledge of the company's products, didn't really had a fucking time to study the products. Shit.. So my boss gave us task: compare brand's pros and cons on a particular product. I'm gonna compare security door access, between MicroEngine and ELid. Hmm.. Had to submit on Monday..

On 1pm, i headed home and sleep, after sent my laundry, tonight's gonna be a party night, and i knew tomorrow have to go for prayers at Puchong's temple.

Zzzzzzzz...

Whoops.. It's like 6pm i woke up, supposed 5pm, and my girl just in time called me. I'll be fetching her around 7pm and i've called Kidd and he's still at home, not sure when, but i'll call him back after fetched my girl.

Just as i fetched my girl, Kidd was on his way there. So we reached there in time, and Elva called me.. Huh? How come she tagged along? Met Kidd at Secret Recipe, with a friend Kevin or Calvin, mixed up names, and the cutest and gorgeous, sexiest pretty momma.. Melissa.. Short named Mel, ooh~ as i said, she didn't had large tits, she faked it by using paddings, while last saturday she did busted her tits, i surely noticed that.. Hmm, ok i'm a pervert, tits make my day, satisfied? How do i know she fake it? As usual, large tits mommas had deep or wide cleaverage, so Melissa had flat types, confirmed she faked it.. Hehe. She gorgeous, everyone needs that kinda chick, i do too, but could she be a great girlfriend that really love and take care of you? That's the freaking question for everyone's needs..

We ordered food, and Elva came and told us she went for browsing clothes.. Introduced to her my girl, and they started chatting, i talked a bit, letting them have something in common to talk about. When i looked at Kidd, he had the same thing running on the conversation, this friend no good, that friend so good.. Both Calvin and Melissa were good listeners, if not i think Kidd had no chance talking to them.

After dinner, i brought my girl to my place for a change, went cy's place and fetch him. He dressed up formally, nice looking dude, honestly!

Reached poppy, went in and met friends at the table, this time a lotsa girls, some cun, some ok ok so so.. So i was expecting to see how Melissa gonna dressed up tonight.. Hmm, she's not even there also. A guy who's in white long sleeve shirt was Kia Seng's friend, me and cy met him at Loft previously and we're having drinks together waiting for the friends arrival. Until we still had no idea regarding his name, yet we've been chatting like close friends, odd right? That's how it happens when you're making friends in disco.

The DJ was sucked to the max, the way he scratches made me irritated, turned me off soon, and kept me out of the mood on dancing. Finally Melissa came and.. Woah, check out her teacher dressing with a black thick glasses frame, holy shit, sexy hot teacher we had at our table, awesome.. Fuh, she's one hell of a sexual appealing angel.. She danced like a flame, burned every guy's heart, heated the environment at our seats, melted the concentration of the music. A sex goddess in the house, man..

Just as the party ends, everyone settle down with chattings and discussions on later plans. Thought we might gonna go friend's house but it was late, so went cy's place nearby and had supper, sent him and my girl back home, changed to my home dressing and went to Puchong, about 6.30am i reached and slept there, just in case i could wait for my cousin guiding me to the chinese temple for praying Guan Yin..

Lacked of sleeping, dying off soon.. In the car, possibly..