Screwed Hurts, Damn It!

Almost weekend. Woke up 6.45am, not really had enough sleep, too much paid attention on the song, really romantic, still haven't memorize the lyrics yet.

Same old time, traffic jam, but i reached office early, about 8.15am. Wrote yesterday's blog, as usual. Edmund came, then Janice, after tea we went office together..

Meeting at morning, talked about yesterday's tasks. After dismissed, we were called in the director's room and talked again about yesterday. So there's no comment about Janice, it was me all the while, so far never did any quotations and Janice got help by my boss, and she gets the advantages. My boss did gave me, but it was a prank, i got screwed from it and got screwed by my boss of my lack of confidence.. No way i could spit the excuses, my boss insisted that i should pull back my theory and listen to what he got to say.. Pressure..

After that, he gave some fliers, good thing, i can give out to anyone like to my friends and relatives, might be a good start from there. I was told to be a door to door task in my office building, starting by today. Yup, yup, i nodded. Called my girl and cy for lunch meeting. Then Kidd called me, just to say hi, and asked if i could join him for a drink in MidValley, after packed my things up, i head to Kidd's office.

Now i know what's his job nature. Real Rewards, working for her sister, don't know if she's a director or some other position. Kidd's the main story teller, i'm just listen to what he gotta say. All about girls, and he's too damn lucky to get along with pretty girls like Annie (GT Model) and Mel (Melissa, woah should check out her breast, fake.. Face feature damn cute and cun..), later he talked about Pei Lin.. Mmm, was she's cy friend, last time we went clubbing together in a group at Bali in Sunway? But most of all the girls were Kidd's 'close friends', close enough to go to their house hang out, talking to their parents and even spent overnight, probably not in a same bed, far out though.. 12.30pm i left to meet my girl.

My girl always too excited on chatting with me, until she always can't focus on where she wanted to have lunch together, gave wrong destinations, one time only, but in an hour of lunch was way too short, first here and there, then we ate lunch at Penang Street. The food were expensive, my girl paid the bills, cuz i told her simple and nice, for her just once in awhile..

Sent my girl back, went to meet cy. His office also in industrial area, this time small factory, i think it was like 2 factory lots, for a printing company. We chatted, and talked about tomorrow's night plans. I was thinking of what kinda occasion will be held at Poppy on 23th.. Yes, Penny asked for a VIP table there, heard Kidd joined the group sharing the table together, it's gonna be a big crowd, almost half of the place they dominated. Planned for tomorrow's dinner with Kidd and his few beautiful mamas, woah.. I asked cy to tag along, and he refused, said the pretty girls were snobbish to him, same like what my girl said to me. I don't if i'll have comments at this, the pretty girl's principles were like, ok, they're pretty, so it'll be like lotsa guys being so addicted to them, kept talking, kept flirting, asked for numbers, i know, i'm a guy, but i never tried on them.. Hello? My girl was with me, gotta respect her. Of course they could be friendly, it matters when how you approach them.. I'm not saying all the girls were the same, even the situations and locations. Depends on how you study the exact moment of how you adapt the flow with the pretty girl, lunch? Dinner? With friends? The best way the get along with them is with friend's introduction, then comes a lunch or dinner together, later on they'll have a study on you, whether you're reliable to be in their trusts, rather to have yourself presented in spontaneous, first came in their mind "i'm pretty, and the guy came and asked me, for sure they might have terrible intentions on me." Pretty girls are pretty, and not every girls desired to get the guy's attention by their beauties. Make them special, they'll get questions twirling in their minds, wondering what kinda specialty they had.. If it's a straight answer to them, they might lost the interests. Fuck, it's about having lunch with cy, how come it became methods? Short lunch, sent cy back office and called Edmund, he's on his way to MidValley again, do demo for client, so i went there and joined him.

It was a computer IT company, dealing in defensive softwares like firewalls, antivirus, some goodies in techs. It's corporated, high class interior and the boss was young, about my boss age, company shared with his partner, IT wiz kid though. Did demo, the owner put consideration, might confirmed next week for installation. So we all decided to go home, and it's 5pm..

I went OUG, hung out at a video games centre, watched people playing Initial D, the guys were great, can drive nicely, but the tacts were kinda fake, the game was not realistic enough. Bought a belt for my work at Jukebox and went to Bukit Jalil for basketball..

Kinda lotsa youngsters, i played along with them, till it was going to dark, Kidd still not yet arrived. Later on his friends found me alone at the court and played too, without lights on. Heard the spotlights spoiled, after all gathered plus Kidd, we shifted to Happy Garden, even worst, professionals playing, and they're really good in scoring, 2 points and 3 points with no sweat. Few moments later, we gave up and each of us heading home, except me and Kidd, went to look for cy and had drinks, then go to his house, read a comic story book about Kurt Cobain, damn good, now i know Dave Grohl was a metronome, hard hitting drummer needed two people supporting the drum set from falling apart. I wonder why they never thought of Gibraltar, maybe wrong spelling on this name, a branded drum kit frame to support pressures on drumming, Carter Beauford also used it, as he's not a hard hitting drummer, it can be used to support more tom toms and cymbals, whichever size desired.

12 midnight.. Gosh, hope i could wake up next morning.. Went home and *yawn*..

Prank Me.. Screwed Me..

Thursday.. So i might have to go out and do sales.. Freaking me out cuz i'm still fresh on the products, not ready for any questions from it.. Sigh..


The traffic ran smooth, reached 8.15am, ate breakfast, wrote blog for yesterday, cuz went home late and tired. Janice got sales, heard she's gonna do quotations, later on she'll meet her customers. I'm still zero, such a loser. Maybe she's female, much more attractive than man. Whatever, best of luck to me..

Made calls to my girl's company, her purchasing manager Karen sounded busy and lost interest on handling any calls from sales or strangers, so i'll call her back next week.

My boss had to go out with the BeSS sales manager Micheal to meet client, passed me a piece of paper written an address, asked me to meet the client. It was just downstairs of my office, i went and a lady was trying to open the door lock and surprised looking at me approaching her. I asked for Doris, then she suddenly freaked out and kept saying "no, no, no, no.." (don't phunk with my heart.. Just kidding..) i can't even say anything about my intention and she went in her office and locked the door.. Fuck, what's going on? Called my boss, then i know my boss tried to pull a prank at me.. I was on the phone quite sometimes and the lady noticed i'm still outside looked caught up, fortunately she came out and started speaking to me, i hung up and told her it must be some mistakes.. By the time i manage to give her my name card and explained to her my job nature, with the product brochues as well. She seemed fine later on, guess i was too humble after all, telling me "you're a stranger, i'm a lady, which makes me a total paranoid.." over and over, till she's settled down.. She said she'll call and look through the brochues, i bid her goodbye and went upstairs again, felt so screwed up. Talked to my admins about the incident, they laugh and it came through my mind that my boss was actually teaching me a prank to approach a client, with no connections at all. Thanks to him, i've learned a skill, it might be useful someday..

Later on, i've to deliver a laser fax machine to Damansara Perdana, after Tesco. Termed collecting cash on delivery.. I went there, it was a phone shop, the owner was too busy for me, all the while he kept answering phone, holding from a handphone to desktop phones, then fax.. I installed the fax and made some configs, explained a bit how it works, cuz i had a little knowledge of the operations after i went Kajang with Edmund sent the same fax and gone through the lessons. The owner kept asking me what kinda features it provides, i just simply say can fax in memory, them send later, laser fax with high quality printing and copying, fast delivering to save cost, bla bla bla, not much, and he still asked me what other features, then he used the fax machine like more than i know how to use, blushed.. Till then, he kept busy, and i was waiting at the counter, the salesgirl quite pretty also, suddenly she talked to me, said she likes chinese songs but don't know how to interpret. I just told her it can be easy if she wanted to learn, then came an indian salesman tried to promote perfume to that salesgirl, he acted like Bozo th clown, funfair is near though.. Collected money and went back to office, passed the money and it's almost after office hour. I surfed net and start to head back home.

On my way i met my girl driving, a girl was sitting next to her. So i called her and asked if she wanted to have dinner with me.

Went PJ old town, had normal budget dinner, chatting and some catch ups. Then i sent her home, head back earlier to watch Monkey God, found another channel showed Soong Hun Kyo, my lovely korean actress.. Mmm.. She's so gorgeous, 22 years old with over handful tits, woah.. Planned to sleep early, then i was listening to Bobby Valentino's 'Slow Down', downloaded the lyrics and listen till almost 1am.. Gosh, gotta sleep..

ZzZzZzzzz..

Tasks On The Road..

3rd day of work.. After last evening's meeting, i felt so exhausted, always reached house at 10.30pm, so little time to rest..


Spent almost 2 hours at the jam along tmn desa to amcorp mall, then again sec. 8 to the exit of old klang road.

Left 10 minutes for breakfast, quickly i went in office finished things i'm almost done. Had meeting without boss, later on boss came in, asked Janice to follow him meet clients, while me and Edmund will be together meeting clients. For sure i'll be following Edmund cuz Janice could be an attractive image to get client's attention, no doubt she got styles..

Both of us went Kajang met an indian guy who's gonna take our products and sell it, we're just assisting him on the product operations, also protect our identity. A simple laser fax was good enough for a small office and frequent use in a hospital, a lady commented it's not advance enough. Come on, did i think she could handle advanced equipments? She got totally zero substance on those, i can assure you.

Went to John Master at Puchong.. Thought Fang Heng was there, called him and he's in Australia.. Found out he's not in this company.. I was told he was, but that didn't matter.. Sigh..

Last client to meet at Bukit Manjalarela, near Din's place. It's an uniform factory, small shop lot, and only the lady boss was in there waiting for us. She's quite cunning on the prices, yet we've given a fair price, she demanded more. We thought that it's fair enough to put a demo on the products and things went well, she made comparisons with other company which provided better price and more optional items with no charges, plus installations unlimited.. That's phony, the cables and covers were expensive and the prices were raised since last year. Whatever, she wanted the cctv at last and Edmund proposed safety box and door access, but she'll make up her mind tomorrow.

Came back office again, surfed net, then go to Puchong had my hair cut, met Rin, had dinner, she seems fine with 4 months plus pregnant, moved out to Bukit Bandar Puchong, staying with parents. Bought hair wax and adapter for the car massager and went home..

Again 10.30pm, iron my clothes, rest on the massager, then sleep..

Tomorrow have to print out some name cards for my girl's office manager..

Task That Blurred My Day

Um.. Uh.. Looked at my clock, it's 6.30am.. Gotta wake up and work.. Gave morning call to my girl, she's on her way to work..

Reached office at 8.30pm, quite jam also, drank teh again with nasi lemak. Had meeting again, seems essential every morning. Task of the day: write down all the brands with each brands, write down all the series, categorize each like fax, copier, keyphones.. Then my boss went out, came a guy in his 40's, Micheal, brought some clients for cctv demo. I overheard their conversations, loads of questions twirled Micheal's mind, but he managed to spit back, due his experience, he's one hell of a good sales manager, told by Edmund, criticising his bullshits. I believe in Micheal, only he talked too loud, either on the phone or with the clients. All i knew he stuttered a lot, er.. er.. er.. much, hehe..

Janice finished her jottings, got bored and surfed net. Gave me an idea to download msn and yahoo messengers, see if cy free enough to communicate. Not much on chats, knew tonight the jamming session was cancelled, he got frustrated.. Me too.. Just as i remembered, i forgot to bring along my clothes to change, then it didn't matter.

We were told that we're having a training and meeting this evening, Edmund said it's going to be a long night. Again i'll have my last night's routine, went back and iron my clothes, then write blog and just in time for bed.. Damn, no differences from my past.. Well, at least saturday half day, sunday, rest in peaceful..

Before meeting, had a tea break, the jots got on my nerves, my fault getting too much brochues that increased my work time, can't finished, fuck it. Meeting started at 7pm, the telemarketeers came too, Ms Chai also. (boss's wife, Edmund told me) started with sales target, and the sales collections were due long time ago, just another view to remind the admins follow up. Then Mr Ur, uh, whatever, gave training and explainations on cctv features. My boss gave speech earlier about our sales product, which we'll emphasize on cctv, door security access and keyphones, due to the market's demand. Such technical items may brought me QUESTIONS.. Lot of those, just like the scary clients on the demo meeting, asked a lot and sounded demanding, portrayed their dissatisfaction on the features, yet it were the latest and the best. Stupid clients, can't get enough, try make your own, motherfucking cocksuckers..

Dismissed at 9pm, headed home, had nasi lemak for dinner again, write this blog, post it tomorrow at office. So tired, had to iron my shirt and pants. When i wanna take bath, again someone's taking bath.. I mean, why? Why always have to be someone gets on my way to the bathroom? I know the water supply was free flow due paid one single cheap rent a month, doesn't mean have to take bath 5 times a day to bring back the cost? For goodness sake, another motherfucking cocksuckers..

*Yawn* zZzZz..

My First Day of My New Job

"Fresh new Monday.. Ahh.. I can feel the excitement in me, woke up at 6.45am, i begin with a stick of cigy, then clean up and dress up, carry along with my bag, and head to my office."


It's common that you're caught in a fucking jam, along Kesas highway, i switched to use MRR2, just after cy's place, it started to jam. I can tolerate the jam, cause i've estimated my time reaching office before 9am, which means about an hour half of duration. When i reached, i still have a little time to spend on a pack of Nasi Lemak and a glass of Teh Tarik, mmm.. Refreshen my morning.

Called my girl, heard she had a sore throat, since last night she ate lotsa durian, that really caused the problem.

I went in my office, seems everyone's busy onto some arrangement at the quotations of the products, mainly on printers, i mean big, some remanufactured, some new. The prices are fair enough for the corporate companies, if it happens to have small companies to purchase those, it shouldn't be a problem.

Had meeting, introduced ourselves, and we're in order to collect all the brochues and fliers together and bind it in a file. Also study the products. The products are various, with those famous brands separated but the various products are together, filed accordingly. I've spend much time on studying while there's a new sales girl, Janice, who joined me was collecting the brochues and started binding it.

I've learned about copiers, faxes, keyphones, etc. Not much on items, but series, damn a lot. Cracking my head on getting to know each had different functions and abilities.

The admin girl, Mr Liew, kinda cute with a black thick rounded frame like mine, short, n i guess her age might be younger than me. I think if she's without the glasses, oh my, what a cute decent girl.. Don't know she got boyfriend or not, anyway i got no chance.. Hehe.. She passed me a form of an invitation of paint ball competition next Saturday, together with all the staffs and the suppliers, around 60 people participating. I mean, how come we're at large group? Counterstrike won't get these much people on battlefield, i mean i don't think the paint ball battlefield could be in bigger maps. Anyhow i'm not sure. So i just fucking signed and passed back to Ms cutey Liew.

Lunch, together with Janice and my our senior, Edmund. The foods were not cheap, almost spent rm5 per meal, luckily i ordered iced chinese tea. The meals good, stayed there for smoke and chats. Till Edmund left, both of us tried to get season parking card, happened that the person in charge went for lunch. We both got out quite early, so it's like we're way too long for staying out. Til we got the cards, spent rm70 a card, headed back to office doing the shits..

I almost got finished the collects, and Janice did all earlier than me, sitting around, surf net, walk here and there. About 4pm after, i was called to go out and collect the projector and send it over to Damansara Utama. I went without carrying my stuffs and got through the conjested fucking traffic, spent half an hour, parking, collected, spend 15 minutes, received a call from the client, asked for a demo on a projector, i'm dead.. I never operate projector before. Called my senior, had to get back office and fetch him so we can go together while he's there, he could back me up.

Things went well, the D.O. signed, we left for a drink, chill out till the traffic runs smooth on my way to home. Talked about the company's history, knew a few things of the relations and issues, seems fine with me. We spent an hour and i fetched him back to office and headed to my girl's place for dinner.

She's happy to see me wearing the watch, yeah it looked awesome simple and formal, suitable for my job. She browsed through the products of my company, and she got not much ideas on the usage. Went Giant bought gagp hair shampoo and shoe polish, sent her home and i'm back home.

Took bath, ironed my clothes while watching tv till i accidentally ironed part of my leg, painful fuck, then doze off earlier cause i thought i had a hard day, only too much of informations, my mind got tired.

Let's see tomorrow's task.. ZzZz..

Most Tired and Dying Day..

Sunday, the day i never went to bed, sleepless and tired mind, all i was thinking that i've to go home to visit my parents, along with cy. I called him, and he managed to answer the call, with a tired yet awoke tone, forgotten our plan of the day.

I went for breakfast, chicken rice, cheapest among others. I don't understand why the hawkers selling expensive foods, especially drinks, more like 10% of the usual price, and not in 'kaw' taste. Even there's a time i ordered cooling herb tea that cost me RM1.30. I told the waitress it was expensive, she asked me how much the usual price.. Gosh, was she dumb or something, of course it'll be like RM1, and the one i've ordered doesn't have any additional herbs, same as the usual. I've told her so and she gave a sarcastic reply at me.. Whatever, the drinks were rip offs.

I've loaded the things that cy wants for his next month's project, gonna unload it at his house. I called my dad about coming over, and he's telling me he can't came up any money to give me for work. Oh shit, looks like no one's helping me, cy's on budget and my girl's on savings in studies. But i'm too tired to think of solutions, so i went on driving to cy's place..

Almost reaching cy's place, i thought of my cousins in Klang.. I thought they might help me till the end of this month, at least i can ease my desperation in the moment. I made calls to them and my 3rd cousin insisted me to come over Klang. The schedule was a bit tight, yet i was sleepy all the sudden, gotta keep my reading initiation and meeting my parents on my plan. Cy got in the car, told me he hadn't slept well, just like taking light nap like me. He looked tired too, but he had promised to come along with me.

On the journey, cy told me Cheras was actually near his place, driving distances was alright, and his aunt was staying there too. And with coincidently, his aunt's house was at my garden's neighbourhood, so near. Once we reached, my dad came out and took the car mat out to clean the dusks, saw us walking near to the gate. We went in and my dad started to talk about my life, bad things i've done so far and never made contacts with my parents about a year.. I'm ashamed, i knew it's my fault. Before any awakening, i was stupid, stubborn of myself. I was there listening while my dad was telling tales of me at cy, and i guess i've lost the intention to get mad at my dad. I knew i've settled down, trying to give way to my dad. Whatever he wanted to say, it's in morality, no doubt it's been like critics, i've not being offended but learning my mistakes. Well, it happens to me as an asshole in the family, butt deep fucked all the way, boy!

We had light lunch, mom made salted whole legged chicken drumstick for both of us, plus sweet potato soup desserts, tempting.. I think my mom forgave my mistakes, even gave an instinct recommendation that i should go for a singing contest. Huh? How she knew i can sing? And about my music talent? God's sake, i knew she had mental stress, and she seemed normal to me, in spite of the sudden remark, i'm confused. Heh, i guess she had a right instinct at me, with no hard guessing. My dad coughed awhile, and i knew he tried to hold his laugh. My dad used to do like that all the time, sometimes i get a little sad that he couldn't show his emotion at me, too hard to handle? Or i was not funny enough? Parent's attitude..

We went off after my parents went off too, heading to Pudu, not sure what's the occasion. We went back cy's place to get his book and we did not unload his stuffs from the car, carried on our journey.

A mamak stall we stayed, the weather striked bright and i'm having difficulties reading and my sweats running on my forehead, afraid a drop of my sweat on the book. Soon we changed place, ended up in Bangsar..

In the complex there's a donation plus shows going on, the crowds were supportive and noisy, just happened it held in front of MPH. We went in and started browsing books, somehow we got prostated on the titles and browsing with enthusiasm..

I found some books that really made me wanna bought it, and i only had enough for a day's expenses, like later we're having starbucks coffee. But i had taken some pictures of the books i'm interested, maybe later i'll buy those.

We ordered cappucinos, enjoyed our drinks, read a bit, talk much, sight seeing like mad. Cause the crowds from the performance on level 1 really had lotsa cun girls, even they're young, they dressed up so matured that it makes no differences to think of flirting with them.. Ah, sorry darling, just joking, no intentions after all.. Shit..

I knew i didn't slept and the day's plan was so tiring, felt like dying and could doze off anytime, anywhere.. On chair, bathroom, on the floor, roadside.. I need to rest.. But can't ease my mind of tomorrow's first day of work, in tense, frustrated, depressed, desperated for some cash to start out. Told cy we had to make a move, after we had dinner nearby Bangsar. I can't eat, lost my appetite, still twirling my mind on my new job.. Cy talked about relying God's issues, i heard him, but can't distribute it in my mind, tired like fuck..

After sent cy home, i head to my aunt's house at klang. The journey was foggy like my eyes, usually i'm capable to focus on driving at night. Once i've reach, i thought of shitting, tried to push all out, only farts, no objects.. Guessed that made me lost my appetite, overwhelmed myself till i got sick from it. My cousins gathered around me and asked some questions, i probably would started those in stories, about my dad, my previous company and my current status. After a while my cousins started to weep, they were fully concerned my life all the while, and i gave empty promises of coming to Klang and visit them. I regretted it much and because of much breaking promises, i couldn't see my uncle anymore, rest in peace a year ago. Whenever i thought of him, i wept too, just like i wept for my dad, i love him, and i can't stand his ways losing my dignity just to protect me.. Soon they come out some cash for my daily expenses on work and a cheque for my car installment, about rm1k i took from them, some bonus stuffs like a watch, compliments from HSBC, few polo t-shirts, some snacks and 2 caps branded in bank's name. After i've spitted all my miseries, i felt energize, maybe you guys thought the money gave me energy, well it's not. I've rest my case, only had to worry tomorrow's work, how i'll be when i've to be trained and ready to do sales.. I'm nervous, ready to take any challenge to prove myself i can, no doubt i'm without qualifications, fuck it, just do the shits.

I went to my girl's place, showed her the watch was supreme nice for office use, she's happy to see me and liked the watch, just a while i head back home.

Made hot drinks, enjoying with a stick of cigy, thought of what if i'd never asked anything from my cousins. I felt ashamed but i'm helpless, my dad won't help. He's fucking rich, and he denied of helping his only son in desperate. I can't blame him, i should've save more money and never really told him i've suffered, just naturally let my life be. Why did i beg him if i knew he's not helping?

Who doesn't know money is important thing in human's life? Damn bloody money.. Always money the problem.

Saturday Night Fever Pt. 1

Saturday.. Ah, weekend, gives me a feel of entertainment. I think tonight maybe going clubbing with cy, i was thinking of bringing my girl to have fun with us. Woke up around 6.30pm, cy called me just to ask if i can lend him my portable mp3 player. I told him i had to use that cause my dvd player again spoiled and i haven't sent it for repairing, kinda frustration of just taking it back from repairing then few days later again spoiled.

Last night, it was raining heavily, can't play basketball, so i went to my girl's house. Her housemate opened the gate for me, smiling along. My girl asked me to stay for awhile cause both of her parents went out for occasion. So i surfed internet and showed her some funny videos and solutions of how her blog can't log in. Then in awhile her best pal log in msn, starting to chat with her, i mean i was at the keyboard, so i'm the one who done chatting with her. My girl was laughing all the way cause she knew she can't type that fast, so it may make her best pal suspicioused. But everything's fine, her best pal still chatted and always replied 'oic' lotsa times and got on my nerves. Her best pal asked if my girl can join her for a drink, so i planned to make them meet each other on Saturday's afternoon. All she could reply was she's lazy la, the weather was hot la and the most absurd, she got no money. I think she's criticizing me while i'm jobless, of course i've got no money. My girl thinks she's making excuses, and i think she's talking crap of going standard places just to have a meet. I replied that they could meet up at a food court or elsewhere, not fancy restaurant. So in the end no plans were made for them just that her best pal was lazy.

Later on, my girl's mom came back, was surprised that i'm in the room surfing net. So she told us she went for a buddhist seminar and heard the discussion why nowadays youngsters like to go out at night time hanging out at mamak stalls. Not only the indians can make business, those youngsters can make socials with others and do gatherings with friends, some maybe on working years need a breakaway from pressures and problems, or either supper just another routine for them, that's how Steven's Corner and Restaurant ABC could make big bucks from that. I like going out at night have drinks while smoking and chit chatting with friends, mostly with cy, and our topics were all about life, and we've been doing it over 10 years and still doing it.


Sunday.. Past 12, midnight at Poppy. Cy told me he's meeting his ex colleague there, while i brought my girl to the place where Kidd supposed to be. All the girls tonight looked bootilicious, sexy and horny, mmm.. I didn't found Kidd at first, standing near at the pub's entrance. Then i saw the girl who looked like Japanese. Her name's Annie, and my girl liked her cause she has the height and the looks, fine with me. The music's alright, still i think it can't be better than Zouk, that's why it always crowded, more cun girls be seen there. Here? Ok la, so far, only matter Kidd's the luckiest bastard, got to know all the chicks like Annie, and another girl who word green spaghetti strap and black short skirt, busted her tits like filling cushions, looked fucking huge for her size of the body, distracted lotsa guys passing there, can't deny that the case included me, i'm one fucking pervert who concerned more on girl's tits, second would be the asses. Let's forget about tits, k?

Cy was not with us a long while, and we're like some strangers to them. Kidd too much entertaining on his friends, i mean girls, of course. Later on cy joined us, and kept complaining of his failure on flirting. I told him there's plenty at our table, so why he bothered of not getting one? He said he tried on the green spaghetti strap one, and Annie was way over his league, so he's still indulged with the green.. Ah, too long to describe the girl. She hot, for the looks, but the busted tits already damaged the personality, cause it looks fake, and she's a pretty good dancer, in sexual appealing way, mmm.. Again i'm so into it, whatever.. But the other bitches were together most of the time, actually 4 of them, went here and there, together to toilet, and even disappeared together, they looked so busy onto something. They sometimes walked pass through me, and the grind feel, ah.. Damn, i wished i could asked them stop doing so, not hard on but annoyed, heh..

The DJ played Snoop Dogg's 'Drop It Like It's Hot', and i sang it loudly, just to have fun. Then cy started to criticise me in front of a friend, introduced himself Stanley. Then this guy started questioning me about my rap things, oh please.. I'm not making rap out a career, just for fun, goodness. Cy kept saying i could rap, yeah i could, in crappy way.. Bla bla bla.. Damn, i only share this with friends, not to those strangers, wise guy!


Only 3 hours we're there, and my girl hardly enjoyed herself, as i know. She probably prostated at the girl's beauty, that kept cy wondering if she's a lesbian. So the lights went on and we've a clear picture at all the beauties there.. What a nice environment.. And Annie's dressed with a low cut that really showed her nice smooth cleaverage, turned cy on.. Haha..

They had decided on having drinks at Tmn Desa, we headed out and reached there not even half an hour, got to know Kidd was in trouble on road block. Soon he arrived and before that i noticed Annie was at another table, besides her, no one i knew there, not even cy. Then Kidd invited us to join them, but we had finished our meals and drinks, better go home, it's about 4.30am and i've to visit my parents in the morning, then go Bangsar for book readings, later at evening go church, then play basketball at Kenny's place, probably my girl would follow for a swim there. I don't know much of these plannings, it's almost 8am and i couldn't sleep at all..
What's going on actually? What's bothering me then? Shit, fuck.. That's how i could write something here.

What i knew all the girls Kidd's friends were not the right ones to flirt with, what matters that they portrayed themselves are the higher leagues, like the high school beauties in Cheerleader teams who flirt with macho football players, and never be friends with nerds and geeks. They knew they have the features and the figures, so they're hard sell, goldfishes. Even if we tried to make friends with them, with just a simple condition.. You had to be a Fucking rich bastard, which you could really spend, man. Spend, like you know you'll earn back tomorrow or just ask your daddy some more money to splurge on bitches. That's real life and materialistic, plus superficial.

Remember the song? 'It's all about the money.. It's all about the WANG WANG, WANG WANG WANG, WANG..' Even i have lotsa money with me, hmm.. I'm gonna get a desktop pc, a new 3G handphone, a new cupboard for my clothes, install new high powered speakers in my car, pay back all my debts and do savings for planning on a new house in future. Time? More i could spend with my best pal, my girl and my family, in reading books, basketball and jamming.. My resolution starts on my new job.


Dear God, have mercy on my mistakes in the past and i've learned my lessons, which brought me an awakening to understand karma and judgement. All i want is simple yet fulfilling life, to have things i want with all my efforts, to be a better person in the future. Even there're boundaries, i'm sure i'm destined to encounter it without fear and be confidence on the path You've made, and You've the right judgement on my life, no matter how i must take my chances to succeed, just to learn about life that's so important to me. Amen..