My Off Day's Visits... (Friday 18/8/06)

I woke up late, supposed meeting my dad at Pudu around 11am... Damn, it's already almost 1pm, my dad called me twice but i hardly noticed while in deep sleep.

I rushed out to catch a bus, took me more than an hour to reach due to the stupid bus hesitate to move fast, only because they wanted to fetch more passengers. My dad was nervous about my arrival, my uncle needed to speak to me as he had to leave to Putrajaya soon.

Surprisingly, my first aunt from Klang, came and paid my dad and my uncles a visit. She's surprised too, that i came. I'm sure somehow, my aunt would said something to me and might drop some tears. She's very emotional at my condition. Yet i never told her my leg's ankle was badly hurt 2 months ago, or else if she did, she'll be paranoid and instantly would bring me to the hospital. Well, as exaggerate as she'll be in such way.

So, my 3rd uncle, first to speak of my decision. He wanted me to help out my 2nd uncle's shop, dealing electronical stuffs. If it's not much to do, my 3rd uncle will bring me along to his work field. It could be anywhere, doing official matters. He's a freelance immigration officer, he could take care of the foreign worker's permit. So to say, he knew lots of high officials around the nation. Not only he deals with the immigrations, he also deal with banking and finances, bankruptcy and rest of relevants. He's now planned to ask me taking over his job while he could go London and open a restaurant collaborate with my cousin sister. Only a price to pay,

Move to Pudu and stay with my 2nd uncle and his family. Sharing a room with my youngest cousin brother.

After all i've thought of protecting my girl's existence, i told my dad. And most of the price i had to pay's conditions, i still can meet my girl, hang out with her while outings, but as long as i get back home before midnight. Well, tell me about it, i'm gonna be nerd. A total fucking nerd, could be no friends asking me outings due their time planned usually after midnight. Yeah, they strictly inclusive this policy just because they're not used to see we all children staying out late at night, while others could. I could stay there, only a month or 2, that's all. I can't be pressured by all the law things as i've used to live my own way. So in return, they don't have to suffer my stubbornness, i don't have be so uptight and stress on their supervision. Yes, my uncle would disagree of letting me staying outside alone.

Hey, come on. It's not that i want to be cocky or something. They asked me to help them, indirectly is giving me a chance. Ok, i accept it. Moving out to their place is the price to pay, reasonable. Now they're taking advantages on me more and more just because they wanted me to join in to their way of life. A total change of me. That won't create me, that'll be a revolution from me, if that's gonna be taking too long of suffer, i'll be bursting out with rage. I'm peaceful staying alone, and i hope they won't be checking up my stuffs and i HATED it so fucking much. I won't forgive anyone checking my stuffs without my permission, either friends or family. That's for sure. So i hope they'll behave in return for me to suit their way. Fair and square.

They were angry at my questions and reply. Heh, for so long time they never really speak to me. I don't mind in the end they don't give me an opportunity to work. I already accepted my fate. Yes, i admit, i never get to success on any career i've worked. They gave me this job as i felt it strongly that they're pity at me. So to say, i'm part of the family. I'm a cast away la, come on. I still don't believe they still give me a chance to rebuild my life. Sometimes i thought of it, i never ever wanted to ask them for help anymore as i've failed so much and they had been disappointed at me so much, again and again. I admitted all my mistakes to them, and fairly i never accepted the offer without thinking it's benefit. My life's a fucked up, just like the song playing now on this blog. Listen to it, and you know the shit i started, i must settle it by myself. Like it or not, it's my life, life still goes on and no doubts on boundaries. I already know my life's a shit, i'm a shitty person and i wish someone would just kill me and laugh at me and would say, "Andy, fuck yourself!"

I feel bored listening to them, and they felt angry while listening to the things i said. So, it proved that i can't stay with them. Why they still wanted to force the nature? I change? They can't change? Just because i'm younger and should pay respect for the elders? Come on, i really DON'T KNOW how, and if i even tried, i feel like i'm faking it. I'm a bad son right? Yes, i am.

Anyway, i've released all my stress above... Phew...

However, i gotta save more money to find a better room, bigger one to stay, with my new pc and stuffs. By the meanwhile, i'll just have to follow their rules. At least i could save some money.

Then, i went to Low Yat and meet my lady boss. Luckily she's there, i thought she could be somewhere else. She was surprised that i came. I sat, and started to say i'm quitting the job. Well, she's definately changed her way of looking at me. First of all, most of the staffs here can't stand the first month joining the company, all because the salary was very low and quite impossible to save money or own usage, seriously. I don't mind, i'm glad cy recommend this job, i really appreciate it and willing to work part time on weekends even i'm quitting on full time. I could see my lady boss was unhappy, she couldn't get any new staffs to fit my position. Therefore, she said she can't let me quit until she found someone to replace. By all means, i've to work for another month, the most i could offer. I called my dad, and he was unpleased to hear my news. He said the same, only a month more he could let me work. The time was tight, and they were nervous about my arrival on new job.

Then i paid a visit at my usual counter. Lots of people waiting in queue to get their selected titles. I only spoken my news a few to them and initiate to help them for half an hour, before i've to meet up my girl back home.

My girl was nervous about me being late to meet her up. So i took a trip of LRT back nearby my place, took a cab and she's still stucked in traffic jam. Then, i told her i need a haircut. After 20 minutes, i've done my haircut, and she's still stucked in traffic jam. Then, i went to rent some One Piece comics. Well, this is really a sucked up moment...

I went in the bookstore, and was looking at the last volume of One Piece i read. Then found the further volumes were missing. I asked the shopkeeper, and she said someone might have rent it. I was pissed, i'm like saying out loud that i've tried to be patience waiting for my queue to read the rest. The very last time, about 2 months ago, there's a bastard who rented most of the volumes, that cost me waiting more than 3 weeks. Then, i'm fine with that, cuz i've been working and got not much time to be there and browse. Then again, i'm there and another fucking bastard took the volumes i need to read. Who the fuck????!!!!!

Then, the shopkeeper felt pity at me, willing to open new comics with the volumes i wanted to read, she knew i came lots of times and can't even find the right volumes. Well, i'm a regular customer, and she could understand a reader's instinct. I can't stop reading a story then skip to another story, or different story. Then, i rented 4 volumes of One Piece, and my girl called and said she has arrived.

My dad called me too, and wanted to meet me up to talk about something. This time, my dad never forbid me meeting my girl outside. And so, my girl really saw my dad, and so i guided my dad to a parking place while my girl sat behind the car.

Sigh, the conversation with my dad was all the same in the morning, and he just can't leave it as like for next time. Then he went up to my place and told my landlord that i'm moving out to Pudu. And so my dad left. And i went into my room, my girl was so paranoid. She thought my dad was coming in. Never will anyone except my girl and my friends can come in my room.

By the way, that's all for now. Oh yeah, i bought some nice chinese cds, Gary Cao and Justin's new album. Very nice. And my girl bought David Tao and F.I.R.'s new album too, both also very nice... Hmm, our taste are similar though...

Nothing much on later... Hehe...

Intentions...? I finally Realised... (Thursday 17/8/06)

I woke up late this morning. I look at the clock... 9.30am... Fuck, yeah i'm late, that's not gonna stop reminding me.

My trip to work would take an hour to reach. And of course, i'm gonna join my uncle next month, and i never took an off day since 2 weeks. Even if the com wanna deduct my salary also never mind. I felt very tired, since these 2 days of late night hang outs, one in cy's place doing some copying softwares, next is going out with my ex. While working, my girl called and advised me to take off day on Friday so i could rest. So i've decided, it's been long i never wake up late in the afternoon.

Today, i've to cooperate with the guy who i ate his chocolate and was very pissed off at me. He came later than me 10 minutes while i'm trying to open the shop. So then, he bought some snacks, 2 bottles of soya drink and a bread for himself. He treated me and i've no doubt accepting his offer. I wonder what've changed him to be 'ok' with me. Ever since i've seen his anger face and wished to wack me up, i thought we might never have a word to each other. I never wanted to have conflicts with my colleagues, and talk about that motherfucker who caused this... Ah, never mind, it's a past.

Well, never too late to feel his some intentions might fall on me, he asked me to do this and that, as if he's really a head since we're only both handling the counter. Why i ever thought such way? First, he's not punctual everyday, always late and sometimes absent that i'm the one who'll be taking care of the counter temporary. I like my usual counter, i made great friends with them. I've decided to help them on weekend starting next month. And so, i did what he ordered, as long the counter looks well organised and easy to browse. I rearranged the magazines of the titles, by categories. Took me more than 5 hours taking care only softwares besides games, plus serving customers a little. My colleague can't read Chinese, even though he's a Chinese. I could read, and he's much too relying on me most of the time due serving customers. Seriously, the last time i heard nobody could ever stand his attitude. I don't mind, another 13 more days and he's on his own anyway. So the whole i was doing all the arrangement, and it's looks very well organised and most of the customers came, found it easy to browse and my counter became a little boosted in sales.

I'm meeting my dad after work. I knew it's gonna be very late but i need to deliver the address to him for my uncle, so my uncle would arrange people to find my Pepsi's agent to pay my salary he owed me for 7 months. Ohhh... How i wished i could really collected the money, then i don't have to be so thrifty on my meals. I'm getting skinny day by day, only ate 1 meal and it's only 2 Roti Canais. My hair's long, ran out of hair and body shampoo, toothpaste flattened, left a roll of toilet paper, laundry piled up, room's a mess, and hardly could smoke cigarettes. I felt depressed when i got home, not at work. I feel happier at work rather at home.

My dad waited me and i reached my parent's place at 10.40pm. Just a while i stayed and he fetched me back at my place. Then on our way to my place, he asked me if i wanna eat something. Yeah... I forgot to eat today, too concentrate at work. Then i thought it's a good time to let him try the mixed pork soup. Mmm... Delicious! We were at the medan near my place, i ordered the soup and my dad tasted it. He loved it much, i could tell.

I really wished i could let this scenario happen most of the time. It's already 11 years i'm out of my parent's house and being independent. I hardly visit them, hardly could spend a while talking to my dad. He's fine, i looked at his emotions on his face, he's relieved. I finally agreed to work for my uncle. Then i told him that actually i had a girlfriend and it's been 3 years already...

Me: "Dad, i don't mean to lie to you, it's just that you might have some misunderstood at me..."
Dad: "I don't mind you got girlfriend or not, as long you don't slack off yourself from work. I just want you to work hard and be stable, so you won't get me worried."
Me: "Yes i know. Sometimes i need to try things out, not just simply advises. At least now i've much experience on dealing difficulties. Me and my girlfriend only met each other once a week during weekends. And all because we need to work and that's the only plan we could figure out."
Dad: "I hope that you could concentrate on work more than relationships, i don't want to see you get so indulged and forget about work..."
Me: "Dad, seriously i never been slacking off while in relationship. It's not affecting me to do so. I'm just had doubts working for a company, that's all. I've been cheated few times and i got paranoid and became choosy."
Dad: "Just be sure you'll be serious on this opportunity. Don't worry about your meals, everything covered. Just work hard and good things will come to you..."
Me: "Yeah, i will. I'm getting old and it's not fooling around for me anymore. I made my promises on my girlfriend and i'm gonna set myself a career that i could secure my girlfriend and get married with her."

And so, he asked to leave cuz it's getting late. I never back home once he dropped me near my house. I just thought of surveying Pocket Pc's model. I've checked through every single model and from the users comments, most of them prefer HP iPaq. They commented iPaq's a clone of O2 atom. Both price difference RM100, and the quality. Most said O2's function got real shitty on start up, and iPaq's weakness is the camera bad quality, plus the speaker's not loud. I felt it's not the matter at all, maybe they're not well said on the usage, not unless i've tried it and figured out myself the weakness since i never use one. I checked a lot on reviews and so far, the first time i glanced on the HP iPaq rw6828, i already know it's potential. Well, i think it's performance can do some tweaking, i've checked a forum that said it can be modified on registry folders. Just read it and not too sure how it be done, soon i get the gadget, i'll try look for it again.

Oh well, i went back home ever 3 hours of research. Gotta sleep early and meeting my dad at Pudu next morning.

*Yawn*

Meeting An Old Friend, Part 1... (Wednesday 16/8/06)

I was very early to work this morning, after staying overnight at cy's place. I'm stationed at the boring counter, the usual staff took day off. Today's stock checking, all the girls from the office came and got busy all around my place. Especially Christy, who always wear low cut upper breast exposed clothes, sat on the floor doing stock checking. So most of the male customers came and always overlooked at her very alluring spot, got themselves tamed and humble while speaking with her. Her voice's sweet too, melted the male customers' heart. Haha, i was there noticed their reactions and i only laugh in my heart. Her breast was like, a-b cup, it's not even palm size. Not even deep cleaverage. Again, it's the upper exposure, enough to kill all male's wild eyes at it. Me? She was there all day long and it made me got used to it.

You never know, i thought they might just as decent as others. They started to swear in front of me, just as it's a normal conversation like any other guys. About almost evening, they left and i'm all alone again. At least they've been there entertaining my eyes and laughs, i'm full.

So to say, being alone taking care of a small counter wasn't easy. Some small troubles may happen to me, like lack of small change, can't find the titles because my other staffs never sorted out properly, or suddenly a big bunch of customers came and ask me this and that. Phew...

A call from my ex-malay-girlfriend (Rin) while i'm at serving a customer. She's eager to see me tonight and urged me to wear long pants instead i'm wearing 3rd quarter pants then. Hmmm, she's a 3 children's mom and after 6 months of giving birth, she still has the same habit, going clubbing with friends, get drunk and horny. After planning, we decided to meet up after my working hours, right at my workplace.

She's still in chubby appearance after the very last time i met her since 8-9 months ago. She fetched me and we went to Jln Ipoh's JI Club where her friend's working there. At first she said that she's bringing me to her friend's place, and clearly enough to say it's a friend's house right? Sigh... Here we go again, ordered some beers and chat along. Her friend, Ieda, working as a waitress, with a formal attire, upper breast exposed blouse, and thick make up. She's quite pretty, and friendly too. I've seen Rin's friends and whenever they meet each other, they would kiss each other and hugs. Looks like lesbians, and they love each other like sisters. So then, i asked Ieda's age, and she was amazed looking at me. Of course, girls like to tease guys with their age, and possibly they would tell if the guys told them. She said i'm just a small kid trying to find a sugar-sister. Due to my T-Shirt and 3rd quarter pants, messy short hair and decent glasses, yeah, i look like a school boy, a small kid lying to his parents going to friend's house to revise his homework but hanging out with cun chicks at bar drinking booze. Heh, i told her i'm 26. She even amazed looking at me, like almost got her fake long eye lashes fell off. "I can't believe you're 26, to me you're just only in early 20's or before." she said. Heh, i'm proud to have a first met friend said such good feedback at my appearance. I hardly sleep at night, i should've sore eye bags and i still looked young? I don't believe what they've comment on my age either. Anyway, i'm grateful.

So, i went on my conversation with my ex. The more we drank, the more we get our conversation got deeper till in sex talk. Usually, my girl told me she'll get horny when she got drunk or so. My ex also said the same, with my full curiosity, i asked her seriously about this issue. "Of course ma, every girls like to have sex, not only guys. Guys can be pervert, why can's girls get horny?" Well, i supposed that whenever they horny or such, they should keep it low on misbehavior. Ahh, we're adults, there's nothing to hide. After all, we usually talk something like these, it's our way to share our experience. I said to her, "You're married, you have all the freedom on sex, even though it's the same with those boyfriend girlfriend thingy, it's not as same as you, married couples have licence to sex." she got depressed after hearing that. "Ok now, what's going on between you and your husband?" i looked at her big rounded eyes with long natural eye lashes. With her habit of fast blinking eyes, she said to me, "My husband was stationed at Muar as i've told you, and our relationship has far apart. I suspect there's a widow trying to take my hubby's heart..." that's pathetic. You could say, any guy would flirt around after got married or so. Yeah yeah yeah... Sigh... I met her husband before, he's a honest high post officer of EON. What my ex told me, her husband's wages can support themselves in luxury life. She even told me that her husband bought a banglo house at Bukit Mahkota, near Bangi. She'll be moving there soon with her kids and a maid. However, she's not happy with her married life, and whenever she needs a companion, either her girl friends or me, the only man she trusted for 7 years. She mostly wanted me to go out with her, maybe i could make her happy with all the funny jokes i could make. I don't know, it's not her the only girl who can be so fond at me. There's another one from Taiping and currently working in Penang. She'll be coming over to KL and i'm meeting her next week. She'll be in Part 2 post.

She did mentioned that her sister Fatrisha knew that we both went out together. I mean, why she bothered telling me about that? I've tried to contact with Fatrisha, mostly she's not picking up. I checked her friendster homepage, she's very happy with a new cute guy. I'm happy for her, and from my ex's news, she's single now. I'm surprised to hear that. You know, Fatrisha's a very pretty girl, tall and sexy style. How come to have guy ditching her? Yeah, once i got ditched by her because of my outstation job. My ex said she's very skinny now. Hmm, she's always skinny, and i guessed without love from a guy she's interested, she got all the hurts. She even saw me at Low Yat and never bother to say hi to me. What's keeping herself to confront me? Am i a scarry guy? If i am, why her elder sister bother to look for me so often until we're misunderstood to be as couples?

My ex started to talk more about her sister. I could've concerning her sister since we've been friends. Everytime my ex called me, she'll bring out Fatrisha's news. She even said that my portraits i've drawn and gave them as gifts to Fatrisha, she kept it nicely in her drawer. I feel like getting back all the portraits and scan them, post it on my blog in high resolutions. Damn, i should call Fatrisha one day and might possibly to get my portraits back temporary. It's the best portraits i ever drew, maybe i fell too deep in love, my drawing skills came out miraculously. I should've practise more but i'm not living in a place with a decent table and some nice tools, especially i got no time to do my favorite hobby.

Saturday, August 5th 2006: One Night Stand @ KL Jam Asia... Reviews

I heard ck told me the One Night Stand was reviewed on the internet and i was wondering how it's like. He sent me the whole webpage and now i'm showing you guys... and truly sorry if there's a violation of the artical's copyright. Though i never change anything from the text below. Happy reading!

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from: the organisers:

After the surprising success of the inaugural show, Hacienda Music together with Super Stellar Sound Recordings is pleased to announce the second coming of ‘One Night Stand’ to take place on 5th August 2006.

The show, to be held at the same venue that is KL Jam Asia Hartamas would see a different format this time with headlining acts, guest bands, opening acts, a secret band and intermission music.

The headlining act would be given an hour set, with the guest bands given a 45-minute set time. The opening slot is given a half hour set to warm up the audience. For the first time there is also an intermission act, whereby the audience is treated to pre-recorded music by local electronica groups specially commissioned for One Night Stand as the bands sets up onstage.

Since the experiment with extended set times proved to be a smash hit in the first One Night Stand, music fans can expect more of the same this time around, but with a twist in presentation to keep things exciting. After all, One Night Stand is on a mission to reinvigorate the way live music is delivered to the audience, and it’s set to do so with a carefully selected lineup of real talent waiting to explode. For an entertaining show packed with great performances for your money’s worth, you can’t afford to miss out One Night Stand.

Here is the list of bands featured in the show:

TIRAMISU

There can be no other act more fitting then Tiramisu to be the star of One Night Stand. An explosive combination of exciting theatrics and great music, Tiramisu is determined to make up for their two-year absence in Kuala Lumpur with such gusto and style it can only be pulled of by truly bona fide rockstars.

Started in 1998 as a project between schoolmates in a local art college, they had started creating music in between classes, writing songs about life, dreams, rejection and the post-teenage angst. Today, Tiramisu has moved onto a new musical direction, guiltlessly meshing musical influences in order to find something fresh.

In 2000, the frontman Rizman started to dabble in performance art and his habit of spontaneous action crossed over to the stage. The band started to combine strange ideas in music and performance art, creating a new realm in the local music scene - a mini clown rock jamboree and a devastated disco discontent, a balance of kitsch and cock rock with the serious subject of the human condition.

After seven years, with still no debut album in sight, they have created a stir in the scene as the band with mystical sexuality and live performances known for aimless surprises, spontaneity, and the infamous chicken dance routine.

They have brought their rock ‘n’ roll circus to ICA at London, Rouge Club, Bar None, the Esplanade Outdoor Theatre and Hard Rock Café.

Tiramisu @ MySpace

THEY WILL KILL US ALL

With band members consisting of seasoned players in the so-called ‘scene’, They Will Kill Us All (TWKUA) were born out of the frustration due to the failures of their past bands. Formed at the end tail end of 2003, TWKUA started off as a musical project spearheaded by guitarists David and Eddie celebrating their enthusiasm for indie rock music. After working on the music, the duo felt the need for a vocalist, and Hafizul took to the stand.

The trio began writing songs and started scouting for permanent members. After a couple of lineup changes, the trio finally decided to rope in longtime acquaintances Amir on bass and Ihsan on drums. Their debut performances were on live TV (Latte@8) and the performance netted them the opening slot for Pop Shuvit at the K.L.H.C Revival gig at Hard Rock Café. The band has since played various shows around Kuala Lumpur and a gig in Singapore championing their brand of noise pop.

Often described as an exciting blend of British indie and US post-hardcore music, TWKUA has already been receiving rave reviews due to their live performances and tight musicianship. However being aware of the fragile and false nature of adoration, they are more tightly focused on delivering what matters most – the music. While along the way enjoying the camaderie of a band, TWKUA is also determined more then ever to make great music that stands the test of time.

Currently in pre-production for their upcoming release due by the end of the year, TWKUA are still experimenting with their sound and music but for now they are just enjoying what they do best and having fun at doing what they like.

TWKUA @ MySpace

LIBRETTO

Hailing from Kuching, Sarawak Libretto is definitely pushing the envelope in their hometown more traditionally known for their British indie traditions.

The Libretto boys recorded a live demo called ‘100 Show’ in September 2004 where the early versions of Magna Carta and Every Summer can be found in this recording, which also includes a Cure cover ‘Boys Don’t Cry’. The demo was only distributed among friends. Buoyed with encouraging reception to the demo, Libretto later recorded their debut ep ‘This is an EP’ in Kuching and released them late December 2005.

The debut material received high praises on its energy and musicianship. For the moment the band is writing new materials for the upcoming recording, which is slated for release first quarter of next year.

The music that Libretto plays is post-punk, however the band mixes their sound cleverly with different genres of rock namely post-hc, indie and progressive punk and not forgetting new wave. With an adventurous musical and the desire to be different Libretto is poised to go far ahead and One Night Stand is definitely the place catch them as they look set to spread their brand of music over to Kuala Lumpur.

Libretto @ MySpace

ORBIT CINTA BENJAMIN

Formed out of the ashes of the hardworking but now defunct Utarid, Orbit Cinta Benjamin (OCB) is a new take on the music championed by their previous musical incarnation. Never wanting to bask in the glory of their past achievements, OCB plays a brand of short, abrasive but heavy music that is bound to shock and awe. Only recently released a demo EP, this performance is their first since the said release and OCB is definitely pumped up to play and show their pedigree for all to see.

OCB @ MySpace

AIRTIGHT NOISE

When Chin Yew and Andy Chow were kids, they dream of being rock stars after seeing their rock hero Kurt Cobain swinging crazily on stage. They weren’t musically talented enough to cover songs of their favorite bands, but not giving up they randomly made up their own songs just to get a taste of being in a band. With only Yew on guitar and Andy on drums, they made a couple of home-recordings and shared it among friends.

A fateful meeting with Yin Pin from Amid The Mimic sowed the seeds for the current sounds of Airtight Noise. A chance trading of musical taste lead Yew and Andy to discovering bands that eventually would shape their musical adventure from there onwards – bands such as Slint, Fugazi, Chavez and Galaxie 500.

After tagging along with Amid The Mimic for some of their jamming sessions and gigs, Chin Yew said to Andy, “I think we can do it too.” Thus, Airtight Noise was born.

And since then, Airtight Noise have always been a random line-up of people with a commitment for least one performance a year, but striving to exist forever. It has been 10 years now. Truly a labour of love rather then just a statement of cool, Airtight Noise plays a brand of music driven by improvisation and spontaneous actions of the moment.

1-800-DRACULA

1-800-DRACULA is a Kuala Lumpur based electronica-duo that consists of two musicians, KapurSireh and Honeysuckle. 1-800-DRACULA’s music is more to experimental electronica with a hybrid of new wave and disco pop. They will release their first EP around September. They have already finished the intermission music commisioned especially for One Night Stand and its definitely going to be a nice way to kill the time while waiting for bands to setup.

Dracula @ MySpace

There is one more act yet to be introduced – The Midnite Surprise Act. After carefully scheduling the show, it was a surprise to find out there is still enough time to continue the party until midnight. The secret band is practically going to be a last-minute call to arms, as the chosen act would only be invited two days prior to the show. The organizers have not yet decided whether to reveal or not the final choice for the Midnite Surprise slot, but in any case be connected to the Hacienda Myspace page for further info via bulletin posts.

Tickets for the Saturday 5th August show are available at the door for RM15. Doors open at 7.30pm and the first scheduled act would begin promptly at 7.45pm. There is an early bird promotional price of RM12 for the first 30 people to pay the entrance charge.

For more information, set times and updates, log on to the information motherlode at

superstellarsound.blogspot.com

or call

Hacienda Music at 012 374 3184.

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Music: They will thrill us all

Aref
Omar

Local indie rock band They Will Kill Us All just wants to have fun making music but Aref Omar discovers it can help the scene too.

THE name sounds like an exclamation
during a bout of paranoia from an acid overdose but the band members assure that its origin is quite pedestrian.

“We were just going through a list of possible band names and it stuck,” says Edwin Raj, guitarist of the Kuala Lumpur-based quintet.

“I guess it was during a dark period in our lives,” says guitarist/keyboardist David Leong, who together with Edwin and vocalist Hafizul Azim formed the band two years ago.

A mouthful of foreboding, They Will Kill Us All has since seen better days with the recent inclusion of bassist Amir Shazlan and drummer Ihsan Ariffin.

The jovial bunch of self-taught musicians, mostly in their 20s, have already known each other from way back and have been in different bands before.

Teamwork is an essential ingredient of the creative process and the band draws from a wide range of influences including Texan post-hardcore band At The Drive-In, Danish indie rockers Mew and British alt-rock outfit My Vitriol.

“We never know how our songs will turn out until all of us have contributed. Fortunately the songs turn out well enough for us,” says Leong.

The result is music that has been described as adrenaline pumping, ear splitting and blisteringly high octane.

Strong drumming drives the amped-up layers of atmospheric guitar coupled with melodic lines and Hafizul’s British influenced way of singing make for some interesting listening.

The band will soon head to Standingwave Productions in Subang Jaya to record new material for a proper EP.

“We’re taking our time on this one to further develop and finetune our sound but it should be out before the end of the year,” says Edwin.

Like many other local bands in the fringe scene, they lament the lack of support and exposure.

“There’s definitely lots of talent out there but that’s exactly it, just out there,” says David.

On the other hand, bands like Love Me Butch, Seven Collar T-Shirt and Pop Shuvit have set the bar by relentlessly working hard with a strong commitment to their music.

“It feels good to know bands like that are around and the best part is they sound great live.

“They have the whole package and people can relate to them as bona fide bands,” says Edwin.

The guys look like average Malaysian youths clad in T-shirts, jeans and sneakers.

Ironically they confess a liking to bands that make an effort of dressing to the nines citing Ipoh indie pop outfit Bittersweet, a band that showcases attitude-fuelled performances in spiffy jackets and ultra cool shades.

The band is slowly making its presence felt in the live gig scene having played in a few including the Louder Than Love tsunami benefit at Zouk last year and the Motion Picture Soundtrack gig at No Black Tie early this year.

Amir, who has been helping out at gigs for some time now, recently organised his first gig One Night Stand under Super Stellar Sound in collaboration with Hacienda Music.

The gig held at KL Jam Asia featured April, Radioflyer, Seven Collar T-Shirt, Lucy in the Loo and Bittersweet.

“The turnout was good, I managed to break even and most important of all, the bands gave solid performances.

“That’s what this gig aims for, providing great entertainment while giving bands the space to improve their live showcase by providing a longer set for each band.

“Seven Collar T-Shirt managed a wonderful 11-song set,” says Amir.

The optimistic bloke is already working on the second installment of One Night Stand with a list of bands that include Singapore’s Tiramisu, Libretto, Orbit Cinta Benjamin and TWKUA.

Airtight Noise and 1-800-Dracula will provide intermission music and a yet to be determined surprised act is also scheduled to perform.

Catch TWKUA at the One Night Stand gig on Saturday, 7.30pm at KL Jam Asia, 19-1 Jalan 22A/70A, Plaza Crystalville, Desa Sri Hartamas, KL. Admission is RM15. Call 012-3743184 (Herri) or browse superstellarsound.blogspot.com
for details.

Amazing... Pissed Off! (Tuesday 15/8/06)

I was awake automatically at 8am, before my alarm clocks rang. I had a headache, wondering what's going to happen today. My DVD player still on, with the main title of One Piece. Damn, another day of forgetting to switch off every unnecessary electricity. I watched another episod. It's really tempting to watch the main hero doing "Gomu Gomu Nooooo...!" style. Sounds childish right? Wait till you guys really watch it.

I was on my way to work. The bus conductor became fond at me due of taking bus daily. Once he asked me whether there's a room rent around my place. Just in luck, i had a contact recorded in my hp. I gave him the contact and he was grateful not to ask me pay the bus fee... Hmm... Even though i still wanna pay and he refused.

So what? They hesitate too much on picking up more passengers along the way, waiting till they're done on each stop. When i reached office, i'm already late. Bah, so much for the kindness.

Today, one of my colleague on leave. My senior urged me to help him out rather the rest of the substitutes. Maybe i could perform better than the rest, i don't know, depends on his faith. I know that i can't work out things well with the guy which i ate his chocolate by accident. Ah, it reminds me more and more about the stupid mistake. Well, it turned out he's much later than me, my com's accountant came and pissed at those who came late. He ordered me to help him open another counter and wait till the guy came. It's not the first time though, and i got no contradiction from those who came late with the penalty of salary deduction.

And so, we got very busy. Non stop serving customers. Just happen that Yulius and Eleanor came to Low Yat to pay me a visit. We chat a few, i served a few, and Eleanor bought me lunch since i got no time to get it my own. Thanks Yulius Sou... Haha. After they went off, came an indian lady. With her superb body curved, beautiful face without a dot on it, tall and talked in very sweet voice. She was waiting for my senior to get her requested title quite some time and she's about to leave. So i spoke to her,

Me: "Hi, are you waiting for my partner to get stuff for you?"
Her: "Yes. I think he's taking too long and i'm in a rush."
Me: "Oh really? I'm sorry, i guessed that we're in the same boat, stucked in time."
Her: "You guys were busy, and even now you're having your lunch."
Me: "I mean, i can't leave my place due to the flow. So i've to stay here, even i'm eating but i've to serve too."
Her: "Ya la ya la, go ahead and eat your lunch then. You're not spending time helping of out though..."
Me: "Well, i can repay you a lunch together if could accept my apology."
Her: "Are you sure?"
Me: "Yes, of course. Give me your number then."
Her: "Wow, you sure very daring and very straight forward huh?"
Me: "Um huh.. I'm very straight to the point, no roundings. So what's your number anyway?"
Her: "You know, guys should give their numbers to the girls, not the other way round. That's what it should be."
Me: "Oh, is that it... Ok, if it's suits you then, i'll leave my number at the receipt."

I jot down my hp numbers with my name at the receipt, and gave it to her along with her purchased too. She was impressed at the way of my approach. Before she left, i said to her again, "By the way, do call me after 9pm. That'll be my free time." she smiled and left.

Me and my big flirty mouth.

Darling, i never know i could have the attention to a fine lady, which means i still have the attraction. Sure someone pissed at my actions.

Later on, the whole good scenarios turned upside down. From good to bad. After lunch, crowds kept coming in and i can't even stop and rest. One time, this Indian guy with his family came to find some softwares. I attended to them and he's like taking advantages on my modest. He went babbling on titles he wanted wherever i go. I went and take the titles, he followed, with his babbling too. Then came a few customers and asked me some titles. Once they stopped, the Indian guy asked me again, with some stupid questions that bothers me much on forgetting the title's codes. I mean, what the fuck was wrong with him? Can't he see me fucking busy at my tasks? Soon, the rest of the customers were settled, left him only. Then, he rushed me to get this and that, all because his wife was complaining us getting slow on their requests, also his daughter's crying. For fuck sake, he's so obsessed to take more titles. I thought i could fuck up his damn bulky wallet. After getting all the titles he wanted, he found himself got scolded by his wife again. Then, he refused to take the rest and only took few which never cost my effort. I was so fucking pissed off and wished i could fucking bitch slap him until his mom and wife can't recognise him. Stupid God damn motherfucking cocksucker.

Thanks to that Indian bastard, i'm all moody for sure. I became strict and ill-mannered. I wished i could stop that, it hurt me deeply though. So until night time, cy called and said he'll drop by to pick up some titles. Same as usual, by 9pm, still got people coming in and looked for softwares. It's already wasted all our fucking time to have a good rest in time.

So, after closing the shop, cy had something to say about my issue. My dad called him and something fishy about it. And then, cy started to say all the things my dad said to him, until we reached the parking lot and paid the ticket. When we wanted to leave the place, he forgotten where he left the ticket. He swore himself not to screw up again and he did. We took a very hard time looking for it as the validation only last for 15 minutes. Cy got panicked, and i could not possible do anything about it cuz he's the one who holds the ticket and it's just a little while ago he paid the ticket. Soon, he found it, he left it at the sunshade. Sigh, never thought he would be careless.

I went to his house and stayed overnight. So he went busy copying all the titles he picked and continued his paintings. I was helping him to get all titles copied in his pc's harddrive. Time lapsed quickly, and i thought i might be late for work. Heh, somehow i posted some on my blog from his pc, saved my cost on cybercafe.

He promised me to burn my favourite Mark Dacascos's 'Drive' movie. And he did it when i was sleeping. For so many months i've waited and finally i get to watch, yay!

Next morning, his mom came in the room and shouted. It got me awoke. It's 8.30am and ck's ready for work. He's fetching me right at the Old Klang Road's main road to catch a bus. When i reached Kota Raya, i walked along Jln Chew Lan all the way to my workplace. Now i reached at the office and no one's here yet. So i'm all alone writing this post.

Yeah, i'm tired. I slept at 4am last night.

I've surveyed around the shops in Low Yat to look for a nice pocket pc. I found a nice one, Hewlett Packett's pocket pc, worth RM2,500++. At first i've targeted N70 and seems like Symbians can't go further on their third party softwares. Talking about pocket pc, you can install dictionaries, with speech enable. Also, you could treat it as like an iPod, listening to music with bluetooth headphones, full ear covered. Movies? With 2GB memory SD card, any movies or MTV would do. Internet? It's Wi-Fi. Once i saw most of the Starbucks lovers like to surf internet using their laptops. I could imagine what if they're in rush to toilet? They'll sure have to wrap up all the stuffs then only can go to toilet. What if i'm using a pocket pc? I could spend my time at Starbucks writing blogs and post it instantly, or download musics and movie clips. That won't be hassle to me in rush to toilet. One slip into my pocket and to toilet i'll go without worrying my stuffs left at the table. And another useful tool for recording gig's demo. A perfect gadget for me.

Well, in order to get that piece of wonder, i've ought to strive very hard to save money and get it as soon as possible. It's been three years i'm using this Nokia 3650 and it's not going further anymore on the latest softwares available in the internet. On next month, i'll be working for my uncle. Sigh, what will happen then? Will it be me starting to quarrel with them or the other way round? I'm worried...

Contradiction... (Monday 14/8/06)

I woke up late this morning. Supposed at 7am.. Ah, fuck it, i thought, and i went back to sleep. Without any notices, i woke up again, and it's 8.45am. Sigh, i'm gonna be late for work today. Just hope things gonna be alright.

I rushed myself getting ready for work. Then i took bus to reach my parent's place at 10am. My dad called me once just to hurry me, cuz he's going to Majestic for some official matter. My mom's still in healthy condition, past few months my dad told me she's quite unstable at her emotions. When she saw me at the front gate, i could see her in delight. She asked me, "I thought you should be at work? Today's your off day?" well, that's the best welcome ever came from her all these years, proved that i'm a bad boy years ago and she seem to know i've changed a little. She used to say to me whenever i got back home, "Why you bother coming home? Off day? If you got nothing to do just work, don't simply take leave!"

"I'm working today, but it doesn't matter, i've informed my superior about it." Once i stepped in the living room, my dad's reading newspaper, he was still the same old attitude, talked very loud like scolding. Since i'm out from my parent's home, all these i've calm my mind not to burst out because of little things i'm not satisfied. Then we started to talk about some issues to be done and i'm not gonna tell out here, it'll be a surprise on later post.

And so, the main topic of the day, will be my future. Ever since the last post, i did mentioned that my uncle gave me a very good opportunity to earn five figures per month. Only one condition: stay in Pudu, the place i never wanted to be at. I love my usual place, it's been 4 years i stayed there, so many things happened there, so many good memories... It's not easy for me to move around anymore cuz my place full of stuffs that's not even count to be disposed. Everything i got in my own room were all the memories i have left.

My dad still urge me to move there, i said i just asked a very small favor, just let me stay there, and i'll do anything you like. He was so pissed, as usual, and my mom was calm. I told them again, as repeated mostly whenever they urged me to work with my uncle...

You see, i can't really stay with my parents. I can't talk with them, i can't share my happiness with them, and the same with my sisters too. I'm all alone when i'm with them. I'm just an idle character in the family, nothing clicks between us. Usually, we just quarrel, and some of my relatives would come to my parent's house and sort out my case. Yeah, i'm a bad boy, the way i am, now and then. I've my own ways of living, totally opposite from my family. In order of not getting them heartache of my behavior and attitude, i should stay out alone and be independent. That's what i should do.

Then, my dad went raging my explanation. I don't know if he's angry at my replies of not respecting him, or just he's trying out my patience and maturity. He made me doubt him, but not my mom. She was preparing something from the kitchen, she came out and asked me, "Have you ate anything this morning? I made some meehoon soup." that's surprised me. Well, what the hell... "No, i didn't. That'll save my breakfast cost..." and i started wallop the whole bowl. My dad still kept scolding me from my behind. (i was eating facing behind him.) Then, we talked about my Pepsi's payment. I think i failed to collect the payment after went there all the way and even looked like i begged them to pay me.. I'm like an idiot. I said to my dad, "I went there and deal with them, they said they'll bank in my payment in 2 weeks later, and now it's more than expected. I'm fucking broke now and i got no choice but to ask you to tell uncle about this. Did he still have the address?" "I told you before you should... Bla... Bla... Bla..."

Sigh... Why he had to repeat the same shit? My responsible to know what's with them and i'll know what i need to do about them. My uncle said, he doesn't want to see his nephew getting bullied this way, and he wanted them to pay the price after i've suffered more than 7 months. This time i'm not giving any shit to them, i'm running out of money, and i'm desperate to get that money for future use. What sort of options my uncle will use, it'll be all his way of dealing them. I don't fucking care anymore.

Then, back to the main topic, my dad still trying hard to urge me. I know he's trying to protect me. I almost cried, cuz i love them. I know they overprotected me till i went relying on them. I said to them,

"You know why i've to stay alone from anyone? You gave all the best options that it's really helpful, both financial and health. Imagine you and mom not around, what am i supposed to do. That's why when things happened to me, i never tell. Even i hungried for days often, i strived to survive till the very last day. I won't die easily, and i won't give up easily. I'm trying to train hard myself to be independent, even i'm not proving anything, i still survive, life still goes on. You gave all the best, and i'll return to my old relying attitude. I don't want that, i'm grateful you're protecting me, but it's not what i want. It's just a small favor, i'm staying alone in the same place i am, and work with uncle. I won't be late for work, i won't be a nuisance when i'm outdoor. I'll be fine."

My mom collected the clean bowl i left on table, and said, "Just let him be, it's just a place to live." Then my dad silent awhile and said, "Ok, be sure you keep your promises and don't let me heartache again!"

For fuck's sake, why don't my dad agreed earlier? I've wasted myself running around to get a job and not even a month or so, i've to work with my uncle. Is it a waste of people teaching me to be pro on relevant field and leave in a short period?

However, i was happy. I called my girl and told her everything i could. She's happy too. Guess what, i'm back to have a weekend off days! Working hours, Mon-Fri 8.30am till 6pm, Saturday 8.30am till 1pm (i guess)... My girl hoped so much that she could see me on weekends. Me too, with all the places we could go, again.

My dad fetched me to work. His old Wira has evolved to Toyota Vios. I said to him, "Is it that i've told you to change car because of the fuel consumption?" "It's not mine, your sisters bought it for me..." with anger he replied. "Yeah right, it's the same shit." i was looking at his moody face. On our way to my workplace, i told him about my band Airtight Noise, which he hated me to tell him. I don't care if he hates it, i've to tell him. Because me and cy have been waiting to get such opportunity to let others know who's Airtight Noise for over 10 years. Yes, playing in a band becoming famous is just a dream. Dreams we had are not simply vulnerable. We worked hard for it. It paid the price though. I told my dad that our band was reviewed on tv, newspaper and radio. He said nothing. I guessed he knew that he's proud to have me doing such miracle even he never agreed. Thanks cy, at least my dad's happy to hear it.

I went to work happily, reached and punched card at 11am. I told every office girl that i've good news from my dad and will be late at work. One of the office girl, who daily dressed very low cut at her breast area, often showing her deep cleverage. I can't say she's begged to get horny, it's too flashy for me staring at her. Not that big, but alluring... Ah, sorry sorry. The sexy office girl, Christy said to me, "It doesn't matter if you're late." "Oh come on, be serious at the punctuality. I always came early but today's an exceptional, some family issues had to be done." and i left to my usual counter.

That's about the things i need to say. I just hope the following month will be a real 'Merdeka' for me... Just hope i could really stabilise my life, and get my girl to be my real permanent companion. Agree not, honey bunny?