When it's getting tough..

Few days with haste.. It's almost weekend! Wow, working in my new job really burn a lot of time, surfing, creating docs, check mails, job diaries, deliveries in vary places.. Really burned lots of money too, on tolls precisely.

Update my tasks:

Went to confirm the color of the signboard, got the most closest pantone color, went to meet Kim (the graphic's daughter, mmm she's cute, pretty, cute voice, thin, average body figure, polite, everything that's really attracted me..) but she's not at the office, gone to my office with her dad.. Weird.. Then when i almost leaving, she came back.. Oh my, she got a real nice attire on. Ok darling, you don't seem comfortable to read this, but as long as you remember the song i sang to you, you know i'm faithful to you, k? So therefore i wasn't really discussing with her about the color, her dad Micheal, or Mr Han invited me to his office to explain the differences of colors in different material. He added that i should pay a frequent visit to his workshop to learn more of his production so in future i could've the knowledge of the products, easier to sell the products.. Well, i can see Kim more often then, if i don't have other tasks to do. Also the graphics department there's only a girl with 3 guys, and she's the same as Kim, pretty. My, this company sure knows how to recruit employees..

Went Klang collect cheque, fucking big sum..

Then Sunway, it was lunch time, went to meet my horny darling.. Haha, i mean decent darling to have lunch together, then meet a client there to pass quotation.

Then Kenny called, just as i knew he would after he went for golf. He hurried me to be back at the office. (he knew i got a fat cheque for him..)

Nothing much provided, some small tasks but not in priority, then i stayed at the office till it's time to go, paid a visit to the carpenter nearby my place for some job discussion. There goes my day..

Thursday..

Woke up late.. Yeah, i had a real grumbling stomach, not hungry or purge, felt like gastric, happened the whole night that i can't sleep well enough. Turned in office 8.15am, Kenny went out for breakfast. Asked Ms Liew for medical chit, went to see doctor, just as the doctor said, i'm kinda like having gastric. Prescribed some medicines, took Roti Canai and a cup of Teh Tarik for breakfast. Then, more tasks piled up as Kenny is going to China for a meeting on Friday.

I knew he's kinda worried that i can't handle it, he's been kind enough to handle some of his own, in arrangements, with a little briefing, i'm sure i can coop it up with some time scheduling. Thereafter, we went out to meet some clients around Klang Valley, came back to office at lunch time.

I guessed i never told how i got stomach ache in the first place.. Morning 1 piece Roti Canai, noon mixed rice, night Roti Canai or Nasi Lemak.. So figured out anything go wrong in these meals? Nutrition-less! What to do, need to save la, have to use money pay petrol and toll first then i get to claim it all early of every month..

Continue.. I went to see client myself then, again i went Klang, collected CD for printing and delivered goods, made a final arrangement with Kenny before he leave.

I stayed in the office until 7.30pm, cuz i made an appointment with my sis at 8pm, had dinner with her at my workplace nearby with her friends that she knew from her Yoga class. Her friends were like so talkative on having something on for their free time, i'm all alone kept myself quiet listening to all of them complaining stuffs, even one of them noticed the Kelisa parked out of proportion.. It's just a small issue, somehow she needs to comment it, oh well..

Since it's been a long time i left home, i really need some gain on brother sister relationship. I know i've been careless lately, i'm too embarrassed to meet my family as i haven't achieved anything to make them proud, but my sis didn't asked for more, she just need me to have a real self care before i turn my attention to others. I can say that i'm kinda failure, and it's not about the end of me, i still can grab hold all the opportunities left, even i have started out late. There's no way Andy's gonna lose this strive, he's doing the best that he could.. Too much praising myself, nitey!

Some kinda “Rude” visit..

Oh, i should get on to this, and that, and.. Rushed and rushed.. No, i'm not late for work, i got some pretty delivery have to make throughout the day, not quite, few hours traveling, that's all for the day..

First, Kenny asked me immediately meet a client in Chan Sow Lin for a quick confirm, I was there and he was outstation.. Whose to blame? My boss or me? It sure is me, I’m too nervous to make a fast task, should've prepared myself before i've done something unworthy..

Some other documents needed to deliver to Klang and Shah Alam.

So in Klang, I went into the office without reporting myself at the receptionist.. Then I met a client was surprised that I was there looking for her without prior notice.. There I go again, too nervous to get things done but never do in proper way. I’m rude..

Then again I went to Shah Alam, but this time I learned my lesson. I do everything I can to discipline myself. Everything’s fine further on..

Heard that my boss is going to China for a meeting.. I’m kinda afraid that I might not be well organized on my schedule, perhaps I need to stay in the office later than 5.30pm just to make sure that I got all prepared for tomorrow’s tasks..

When someone likes dogs, there'll be someone who likes cats..

Between the opposition, i like both, or any kind of animals, mostly harmless, silly looking and dumb. Cute.. Yeah, cats are better to cuddle with, dogs are kinda aggressive, saliva everywhere, for cats will be pukes and furs everywhere. Usually the pictures i took were cats, for straw dogs they're not adorable, they're intimidated, ugly, dirty and can go crazy if you try to touch them, but cats are totally another way around. Cats are like distinguish when they're walking and sitting, when they sleep, they look silly with variant styles, dogs walk normal, sit normal, when they sleep, they don't sleep in silly pose.

Dogs are noisy, cats meow are cute. Cats don't really lick, they grind, just giving the master some minor massage and love. Dogs like barking from far, jump on you, lick till you got the bad odor..

Cats do sleep with their master, dogs barely sleep with them, cuz they stink too much with those saliva around.

I sounded like boycotting dogs.. No la, i like dogs too, have 3 dogs at home. It's funny to see cat and dog live together, they always fight and not serious in fight, like pillow fight, but cat always lose, no matter how big they grew, it just a little brother of dog. Yes, i've seen my neighbour had both. Just funny..

It's late, i'm starting to talk crap in here.. I mean i've started, so i stop for now.

Nighty!

What's my KEY TASKS?

Holy broccoli.. It may seem to everyone who's reading this, but to me it's some new shit, a big fucking responsibility to aim some kinda achievement i never attemp..

I got an appraisal form from my boss, Kenny, some explaination he made, kept me wonder what i'm supposed to write on my true responsibility. Everyone knows their job scope, but for this shit, for real, if i got myself in trouble, damnation begins..

Let's see, i made myself confidence enough to take this job..

Appraisal form..

How do i write? (i turned out less confidence than ever!)

I've spent whole weekend with my girl, completely forgotten to revise the form. On Sunday night, i got panicked, started reading the whole form, what do you know, i don't get it..

Also, i've to create a new idea for refine the stock list for Jotun, only that i manage to finished that shit on Monday morning before i went in office. Hurried i composed the form, miraculously i made it, just in time Kenny came in. He always have that raging looks, terrified me a lot, somehow he's humble in everyways, no matter when i'm trying to ask him something, a little repeated myself just to confirm i'm doing it right, he still answered me with humble, same looks.. *Gargh!*

Throughout my questions upon the appraisal form, he told me i'm given authority to make mistakes, but only that particular mistakes were not repeated itself.. And his looks again.. Terrified me..... So what i'm really supposed to do? I searched on the internet, about Account Executive, definations, scope, non returned with answers. I wonder how Production Assistant should have more popularity over the globe? Too torturous? I can see much changes to cy, exactly how he turned, on Saturday, he was kinda another person, aggressively making conversations, and of course, throughout the week, he needed a big break. I never seen anything like this before, really got me worried.

However, this week's gonna be a real tough week for me, the whole Monday almost got me into disaster, such as the contracter got lost in Bukit Bintang, he can't read alphabets and hell he would find Tang's Studio. I promised him i'll be there but some other things got in the way, for the last call he made got grumble and said he might leave if he couldn't find Tang's. I rushed there within 45 minutes throughout the jams, for the sake he did the job as appointed, not stood up. Thus, such a waste at all, some parts were not compatible to the backdrop, delayed the completion time, and i gotta rush to another place. Not even 1/2 hour there, straight to Sunway, then by the time it was like 5pm.. Oh well, gone home had a nice DVD time.

Ironed my clothes, kept thinking about my key tasks.. What's gonna be? A friend called me, for many times he had been asking me for a drink since 2 weeks ago, like no other friends he could find instead of me, desperado.. Thought i could've finished the Steve Vai's DVD, damn again i'm out till late again..

*yawn*

i said never i would write so much, cuz i got much excited there days, i had my desk with pc in my office, plus infrared device adapted, from my phone i composed this crap, transfer to pc through infrared, copy and paste texts on Blogger, viola! One click to post, no expiry page, no hassle, fast and reliable. Plus pictures too.

Tough, damn it's tough..

Friday, Kenny came in earlier than previously, i was online finding definations of the materials found on the documents, like Tyvek and Tarpauline, only advertising companies know. Cy was on MSN chatting with me, he had a role in new local movie called 'Cicak-Man', starred famous local artists like Yusri KRU and Erra Fazira. I was surprised to hear that the role he got was an omen, i told him before KRU Group of Companies was our previous clients.

So far it's just some following up calls to make the whole day, till Kenny gave me an appraisal form.. Wow, i never had one once, he described the whole idea of how i should put my target on my job scope, if i don't achieve what i supposed to, there'll be some answering to my superior.. Damn, it's kinda errie commitment type, but it's good to have it, a prove to protect my rights on getting a raise or something, so by the end of the day, there's no arguments involved, only if the appraisal form sided me, or shall say i proved my efforts.

For a few months after, finally decided to clean up my room.. I know i know, gross right? I'm lazy, all i do is sleep when i'm back home. My girl had class, so i went to look for her later at 10pm, she spent an overnight at my place.

Saturday, she had class at 2pm, sent her home, talked to her mom and her dad scolding her for staying out, then i sent her to LRT. Then called Yulius to pay him a visit.. He's working in Marmalade, wow a comfy place, real nice and relaxing.. It's nice to have me and my girl do celebrations there, together with Yulius and Eleanor, perhaps more close friends celebrating together, a perfect gathering place..

Eleanor was there too, Yulius was like free to talk to me, then i know he's head of the cafe, boss la.. In fact, the place wholly owned by Eleanor's sister, i ordered Cappucino, on the house, i didn't expect that (thanks, i would like to have more house pouring please.. Kidding!) then got to know my girl's class was again postponed to another month, so she had to join me with Yulius and had dinner there.. Damn, RM30+ gone on meals.. I've been there almost the whole day, as i called cy and Andrik to see if they're coming over. All of them stood me up. I'm kinda frustrated at first, got me a minor headache, don't know what to do later at night. Then heard cy planned to go Soda, and i've to borrow some clothes from Yulius.. After that, changed plan again.. Then again Andrik was in Hartamas, oh well, gotta meet him. Yus got a nice effects for his new guitar, weird combinations of sounds but cool, not so costly. He had great life now, from time to time he's strangled on his will to survive, at least i know my buddy's doing great, i'm eased. Just hope he won't forget what we had good times few years back, if it wasn't that, i might seeing him like i see Benson, Fang Heng and others that not close to me.. (cy told me you're being anti-social, but in my case, i understand your situation, you've to work man!)

First at Mamak, then switched to Decanter (the way pronuncing Decanter sounded like cranky, no slang at all.), Fang Heng, Benson and some girls were there. Then got to know cy started his session.. Hey i want my session man, when's gonna be at? I think another option will be.. Yus, mind if i join your session? Hah!

Again my girl spent another overnight at my place, but this time i slept a lot, till afternoon. Only lunch, got home and watched DVDs, then sent my girl home, sitting at Mamak, composing this post.. Oh well, i haven't read through the appraisal form and ironing my clothes.. And not sleepy too.. Shit, it's going to be another day of tiredness..