I'm Devastated... Help Me!!
hmm.. how bad it was to have something i really need in my life, like stable finance, better cared accessorized car, always have time for my girl, spend time with friends in clubs, spend money like no worries, have my own house that i can really cook my most favourite chicken in black sauce.. how long it'll take to reach that?
i've doubts in my life, even about my job.. i've used to not think of others, concentrate working. Work, work, work.. now it's totally different situation, since i bought the car, next 2 weeks i knew, my boss called up for a meeting, sounds important to me, and then.. he told us all if the company couldn't pay the previous amount of salaries, but only they set up a fixed salary rate, with no extra over time, allowance and public holidays, are we agreed to work as usual? or if we disagreed, we can put down resignation and find other jobs..
i was then.. stoned.. i don't know what to do.. i supposed i should leave the company because i thought the meeting was a bullshit. such bullshit to me cutting cost while the boss are flunking money out on unneccesary investment? i can't believe of what he had spitted out.. damn, i'm confused, don't know how am i supposed to survive starting of the day i heard the crap..
i sat down, my boss's brother kit came and gave me a nice pat.. "i'm sure this is going to be temporary, i know what's going on, the business getting slacked nowadays, so we all have to face the fact that everyone's struggling, what ever it is, if you needed help, just tell us, maybe we'll cover up your financial crisis.. and i'm truly sorry about the issue you heard, and that's just after you bought the car..." he did said some others, but i can hardly listen, i'm stoned, still stoned and never been stoned in my life before, greater stoned than when my wife called our marriage off.. sick man, i just... fuck.. could you guys understand how i feel? i'm like sohai who just bought the car and suddenly lose the job.. how you'll gonna survive, fucking asshole?
ok, i've set my mind, it's okay, i can overcome this crisis, tried and tried, months by months.. and the end of the results.. i've failed, cuz i've to come up RM1000 per month to cover my ass.. damn, i only knew i have less than RM400 on my daily expenses, sort of like cigarettes, food (most of the time 2 meals per day), cybercafe (doing blogs and games), car petrol (weekends), and i think it's all doom to me, i can't afford it, there's a way i can do is sleep after work, wake up then work, finished work then sleep, like sohai till the end of my life.. nah, never gonna happen to me like that...
i've given myself a fucking deep thought onto this fucking crisis, consult from my friends, from my girl, never from my family, cuz this crisis company was introduced by my dad, so i won't trust him anymore. my girl told me if i'm interested of working as asalesman, she can help me out. then again i hold it, thinking others may give me better and secure future.. then i asked jeffrey. he said he can help me, if only i'm into it, be interest but not desperate... confusing terms, i don't know what's jeffrey's up to.. again i hold the offer, cuz i think by the critical time my boss encountering, he's in need of my help.. and i'm so dumb enough to think of being do helpful.. i wasn't sure it'll end up like this, but i know i'm doing my best to do something and never thought of anything he would return to me..
the last time before the incident happened, i was in puchong branch, operating business.. it was friday, i came to work early in the morning and saw a bunch of people hanging out the shop.. i don't know them, never give a shit and open the shop. so one of them who seems like a leader came to me and asked if i could let them count the stocks... at first i thought it was like already acknowledged from my company, so i let him do so. then my company called me, telling me to hesitate their working time... too bad, all of us totaled a football team, only two blocks of shops, it won't take a whole day to finish to stock counting...
we finished counting at 6pm, while the rest of my workers were released to go home. so the group were waiting for someone and it'll takke some time for them to reach. so i joined them for dinner and talk some other things, and one of them who's wearing glasses offered me a job, based in KL, working as a salesman. the company was based in Penang, so they have aacounts in KL, needing people whocan be trusted to serve the clients.. so he thought i might be the right candidate as i can see he trusted me, from the way how i present myself, i'm not sure.. he gave me his mobile phone number, asked me to considerate and give him a ring.. i did asked something regarding the job, not much, at least to let him know a little i'm interested while i'm not so interested, some tactics to show i'm modest on his offer, not neglect..
left the shop around 9pm, went to friend's house and chilled out, started to thinkmore and more about the incident happened at the shop... what the fuck is going on la...?
next morning, received a call from company, required me to go to the office and waited for the group to come. and so they reached, had their breakfast and start doing stock counting that has written in piecesof papers.. i was sick since yesterday, and i can't really focus on the work... they counted the stocks for like almost 3pm, andeventually my sickness got contagious towards the group, and they all sneezed and coughed, just like me.. there are some few calls received from my office girl, she was sitting next to me, so i overheard something.. my boss's father was admitted to the hospital, heart attack and vomitted blood. pityful, no wonder i haven't seen my boss since he got back from sarawak... arif was following him like a dog, so i haven't seen him too.. just about the thing i knew, the shop of puchong was gonna be mortgage to other rich people, my boss is going to be bankrupt, i'm losing my job, and i'm ready to find another job. i remembered the last time i've checked my EPF, i found that since the day my boss decided to give a fixed salary to me, it included EPF deductions, and there's no deductions even since. damn, and i don't know how to tell my boss..
on sunday, i was on my way fetching my girl, ym boss kit called me and told me i can rest for the whole week until next month he'll let me know if there's other tasks for me.. i'm not happy about it, cuz i knew something's wrong.. i've rested for 3 days, and today is tuesday, i woke up around 7pm, hurried myself to get my clean laundry. i bumped into this ex staff, who's now working in a small restaurant selling mixed rice. he told me about the incident of my boss ran away without a trace and there's a few trucks came and cleared the office's goods... i was shocked, but never show throughly to thatex staff.. he told me more, i just recall the office and my boss's incident.. how could it be.. my boss ran off? office got swept? totally devastating... i tried to call jeffrey and ask him out from drinks and he's too busy at his meeting... i'm confused, i'm considered jobless now.. what can i do???
what the fuck can i do...???
i've doubts in my life, even about my job.. i've used to not think of others, concentrate working. Work, work, work.. now it's totally different situation, since i bought the car, next 2 weeks i knew, my boss called up for a meeting, sounds important to me, and then.. he told us all if the company couldn't pay the previous amount of salaries, but only they set up a fixed salary rate, with no extra over time, allowance and public holidays, are we agreed to work as usual? or if we disagreed, we can put down resignation and find other jobs..
i was then.. stoned.. i don't know what to do.. i supposed i should leave the company because i thought the meeting was a bullshit. such bullshit to me cutting cost while the boss are flunking money out on unneccesary investment? i can't believe of what he had spitted out.. damn, i'm confused, don't know how am i supposed to survive starting of the day i heard the crap..
i sat down, my boss's brother kit came and gave me a nice pat.. "i'm sure this is going to be temporary, i know what's going on, the business getting slacked nowadays, so we all have to face the fact that everyone's struggling, what ever it is, if you needed help, just tell us, maybe we'll cover up your financial crisis.. and i'm truly sorry about the issue you heard, and that's just after you bought the car..." he did said some others, but i can hardly listen, i'm stoned, still stoned and never been stoned in my life before, greater stoned than when my wife called our marriage off.. sick man, i just... fuck.. could you guys understand how i feel? i'm like sohai who just bought the car and suddenly lose the job.. how you'll gonna survive, fucking asshole?
ok, i've set my mind, it's okay, i can overcome this crisis, tried and tried, months by months.. and the end of the results.. i've failed, cuz i've to come up RM1000 per month to cover my ass.. damn, i only knew i have less than RM400 on my daily expenses, sort of like cigarettes, food (most of the time 2 meals per day), cybercafe (doing blogs and games), car petrol (weekends), and i think it's all doom to me, i can't afford it, there's a way i can do is sleep after work, wake up then work, finished work then sleep, like sohai till the end of my life.. nah, never gonna happen to me like that...
i've given myself a fucking deep thought onto this fucking crisis, consult from my friends, from my girl, never from my family, cuz this crisis company was introduced by my dad, so i won't trust him anymore. my girl told me if i'm interested of working as asalesman, she can help me out. then again i hold it, thinking others may give me better and secure future.. then i asked jeffrey. he said he can help me, if only i'm into it, be interest but not desperate... confusing terms, i don't know what's jeffrey's up to.. again i hold the offer, cuz i think by the critical time my boss encountering, he's in need of my help.. and i'm so dumb enough to think of being do helpful.. i wasn't sure it'll end up like this, but i know i'm doing my best to do something and never thought of anything he would return to me..
the last time before the incident happened, i was in puchong branch, operating business.. it was friday, i came to work early in the morning and saw a bunch of people hanging out the shop.. i don't know them, never give a shit and open the shop. so one of them who seems like a leader came to me and asked if i could let them count the stocks... at first i thought it was like already acknowledged from my company, so i let him do so. then my company called me, telling me to hesitate their working time... too bad, all of us totaled a football team, only two blocks of shops, it won't take a whole day to finish to stock counting...
we finished counting at 6pm, while the rest of my workers were released to go home. so the group were waiting for someone and it'll takke some time for them to reach. so i joined them for dinner and talk some other things, and one of them who's wearing glasses offered me a job, based in KL, working as a salesman. the company was based in Penang, so they have aacounts in KL, needing people whocan be trusted to serve the clients.. so he thought i might be the right candidate as i can see he trusted me, from the way how i present myself, i'm not sure.. he gave me his mobile phone number, asked me to considerate and give him a ring.. i did asked something regarding the job, not much, at least to let him know a little i'm interested while i'm not so interested, some tactics to show i'm modest on his offer, not neglect..
left the shop around 9pm, went to friend's house and chilled out, started to thinkmore and more about the incident happened at the shop... what the fuck is going on la...?
next morning, received a call from company, required me to go to the office and waited for the group to come. and so they reached, had their breakfast and start doing stock counting that has written in piecesof papers.. i was sick since yesterday, and i can't really focus on the work... they counted the stocks for like almost 3pm, andeventually my sickness got contagious towards the group, and they all sneezed and coughed, just like me.. there are some few calls received from my office girl, she was sitting next to me, so i overheard something.. my boss's father was admitted to the hospital, heart attack and vomitted blood. pityful, no wonder i haven't seen my boss since he got back from sarawak... arif was following him like a dog, so i haven't seen him too.. just about the thing i knew, the shop of puchong was gonna be mortgage to other rich people, my boss is going to be bankrupt, i'm losing my job, and i'm ready to find another job. i remembered the last time i've checked my EPF, i found that since the day my boss decided to give a fixed salary to me, it included EPF deductions, and there's no deductions even since. damn, and i don't know how to tell my boss..
on sunday, i was on my way fetching my girl, ym boss kit called me and told me i can rest for the whole week until next month he'll let me know if there's other tasks for me.. i'm not happy about it, cuz i knew something's wrong.. i've rested for 3 days, and today is tuesday, i woke up around 7pm, hurried myself to get my clean laundry. i bumped into this ex staff, who's now working in a small restaurant selling mixed rice. he told me about the incident of my boss ran away without a trace and there's a few trucks came and cleared the office's goods... i was shocked, but never show throughly to thatex staff.. he told me more, i just recall the office and my boss's incident.. how could it be.. my boss ran off? office got swept? totally devastating... i tried to call jeffrey and ask him out from drinks and he's too busy at his meeting... i'm confused, i'm considered jobless now.. what can i do???
what the fuck can i do...???
posted by andyreymex at 6/22/2005 12:04:00 PM
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