Suffering pt2

"well done, well done (my name), ur doing a great job! smart and accurate!"

this is some phrase which brings a person to have more dignity in his life, respects from others, more attentions.. in the end, that person would have left alone, or thrown off to somewhere better off..

it was me, its not the pride i was pursuing, is the money, working as hard as i could, save more than people can save, i made myself a promise, i wouldn't let my future wife disappointed.. i bought my own car, finally.. and i get to travel anywhere i like, no boundaries. i just went to a beach nearby my shop, a isolated place called minyak beku, frankly i thought the place was polluted by disposed oils, how stupid i am. the routh was nasty, reminds me of initial d, i tried my skills, the last thing i know i was sucked to this route, thoroughly out of expectation. fucking stiff route, if any person who carries P license would have died there cause by fatal accident. much bumps and curves, not much road lights as guidance, if u think of putting up hi beam, u may cause other people into accidents.

i reached there in 10 mins starting from my shop. i've asked the coffee shop workers and they told me don't go there at night time, plus the journey may take up 20mins. well, i guess i'm above their expectations.. hehe.. so, i seen quite number of cars parked nicely facing towards the beach. the waves tiding, strong wind blowing.. and the couples in the cars having private sessions.. woah, i'm there and somehow they notice me kinda like distracting them. i'm not in that intention, just chilling. so the time went on, a couple stepped out the car, and went off somewhere nearby chill out. i think they just had major session before my appearance and they need more air to breath since the jerk off pulls out quite nasty smells and polluted the car's interior, haha.. the couple dressed up kinda formal, like they just got out from the club, just nice to find a place like this chilling out. if i can wish, or hope to have such time with my boo again, yet we did some last time, quite adventurous hah!

when i've posted my blog before this, i log off and thought i may go back and join my staffs for some chats before head to bed, unfortunately they decide to go somewhere else with their friends by car, so they left me the keys and telling me they might coming back late. i supposed to wake up early in the morning and go to the phone shop claiming back the deposits. that was my boss's order. so i've called them and mayb they will stay overnight at their friend's place and willl come back before the trailer comes in the afternoon. the best time to do now if i were left alone is to log in and write these bullshits again, if ur not impressed then i'm lost for words. hey, i'm kinda like a wanderer now, what the fuck u expect? i need company man!

anyway, i don't think my boo having a good mood recently, because her pet bro just got the "fall in love" feelings for her.. i guess it's gonna create havoc inbetween our relationships, because the reason of i'm being away too much and the situation just got out of control.. pathetic right?

i don't have the good mood too, my best pal's always no company to join him for drinks, my boo often went out with her new pet pet (pussy) bro (disasterous), i'm not sure i'm homey or wanderer, fuck that! godspeed my instinct on future arrangements.

Suffering

i was in kluang about 11 days, what's our routine is when we wake up in the morning.. sorry, it was afternoon.. cleaned ourselves and we watch some movies, or maybe mtvs.. then we'll pass our time till 7pm, and it's dinner time, yay! we went and had our dinner, then we came back, watch movies again!! then some other staffs went to sleep, and i was playing my phone games, till i'm through, i went to sleep too..

guess wat?

the routine went on 11 days!!!

damn, i hate this going on, while we're in the store and our new shops still under renovation, only rolling shutters installed, paintworks done and broke the wall. no utilities yet, in fact.. damn it..

thanks to a call from my boss, which happenly on 12th day morning, and i was not getting enuf sleep due played too much phone games and got sored eyes thereafter. he order me to go batu pahat and do closing jobs there, moving to bangi, which the place is near to shopping arcade and banks. great, finally there's hope. i've finished my dough on 10th day and we all been starved for like 2 days, and no one was there giving us a helping hand, not even the next door the groceries shop owner, who assume he only get low earnings, that a single rm50 note would like killing him.. perhaps he don't believe in us, what the hell, our stuffs left here and we won't just run his rm50 bill, that's pathetic, and more pathetic to say we're starved for 2 days and asking help from him and all he gotta say is "i earned quite few these days.."

what can i say? "damn him!"? what ever, i packed up and we all headed to batu pahat, leaving my supervisor there at the store just to keep an eye of the goods from being stolen. remember, he has no money too, so what shall i do in order to let him live there? hehe

i've reached my destination that took about less than 1 hour, then we start packing until midnight, refreshed ourselves and went to have drinks just right outside the shop. it's called red apple cafe, the feel is something like bukit bintang, but only they're chinese style, i can coop up with that. and they even hav wireless broadband, and most of the time i've seen quite lots of people carried their mobile gadgets there and do chattings, emails or surf porn.. i did saw one guy did that.. pervert..

i borrowed some money from my staffs and finally i can do some thing from my blog. why i need to borrow money? yep, i haven't got my salary. i think i'm a good leader in my com. why?

i called my boss about money for travel expenses, he told me he'll bank in money for me and distribute all the money as paying salary to the staffs. he wasn't sure he has to bank in how much but in the end of the day i distribute the money and left none to myself! cuz the money was calculated just right for the rest of the staffs besides me.

called him again and yet he's telling he'll bank in to me.. until tomorrow i called him again, he asked me to meet him in kl so he can pay me my salary.. that hurts a lot to me, damn it!

i got some other money (pocket money for travel and food expenses) with me, but i can't really use it for other purposes. so what the hell, i think i need to post this blog so i can let go my anger and pain inside of me..

let's hope my boss really kept his promise, or else, he'll lose his pioneer prodigy...

whew, thanks..